Fated Love

No fate

2012-01-17T18:53:00.001+08:00

Damnnnnn. Now to think about it, if I become chairperson good sia ! Then can know who is he and stuff. Wah sian -.-
And I "lost" to her by like 2 votes or less only. First round I 12 sia. Sigh. Really no fate to know him.

BEAST post again ! hahah.

2012-01-05T20:52:00.006+08:00

hellos. jolyon asked me for the password to this blog just now. but here too many secrets le, cannot xD

the last part of the show is loading too slowly. so here i am ! hahas.

just read something ridiculous. luckily nothing happened, cube entertainment won the lawsuit ! YAY FOR BEAST ! :D here's the link: http://www.allkpop.com/2012/01/cube-entertainment-officially-wins-their-lawsuit-against-mogef

and it's yoseob's birthday !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOSEOB !! the cutest member of BEAST heheh ^^ ILOVEYOU LAH ! HAHAHA. happy birthday !! #HappySeobDay was trending last night, second place somemore ! but when it finished loading, it was gone ): so no screenshot. oh well. here's the link ! i like cus got all the translation ! :D allkpop rocks lah hahah !

http://www.allkpop.com/2012/01/b2sts-yoseob-celebrates-his-23rd-birthday

jealous of the fish ? lols okay lah. not that crazy. http://www.allkpop.com/2011/12/b2sts-yoseob-teases-fans-i-kissed

YAY ! most huggable ! YOSEOB ! HAHAHA. see, you got like so many fans !

http://www.allkpop.com/2011/12/b2sts-yoseob-voted-as-most-huggable-in-recent-poll

to fish : HAHAHAHAHAHA omgosh !! this MUST WATCH !! how come yoseob more nervous than IU ?! LOL. maybe he likes her, aww ): but the funniest is...wait for it...GOT BONGSUN NOONA ! HAHAHAH omgosh this is so funny, go watch !

http://www.allkpop.com/2012/01/yoseob-expresses-his-nervousness-on-duet-performance-with-iu

have i shared this before ? cant rmb. but if i didnt then here it is ! gikwang's other talent hahaha ! GIKWANG ! http://www.allkpop.com/2011/12/b2sts-kikwang-discovers-his-inner-photographer

beloved leader DUJUN ! :D and rapper JUNHYUNG :D wah. like shuang only hor in the plane hahas. but so tough for them. JIAYOU ! HWAITING !!

http://www.allkpop.com/2011/12/b2sts-junhyung-and-doojoon-share-a-secla-inside-an-airplane

it's back to my show ! :D just realized this is a BEAST post again HAHAH. i'm sorry ! shall write something non-beast but sad, school is starting ! ): been going back to school before it reopens due to triton camp and cca zzzzzzzzz. but triton camp was not bad, when playing lah. when waiting it was just pure waste of time. but the games were fun so thanks to triton exco ! cca was just, boring. BUT luckily now play the songs still can play abit, so okay. but, still, since when was co fun ? lols. sian ttm. school reopening. so dont want it to.

oh and i'm getting chubbier. dont like. hope it's just "holiday fats" and will all be gone when school reopens. hope it will be gone in a less painful and torturing way. please let it be naturally gone. i dont wanna like run like mad in pe or sth -.- but cannot force jian fei, if not later my small boobs gone :O ! hahah i'm saying that sentence cus people who see this are all girls ! okay a guy knows this password, but idthink he'll come and see. plus he's my dajie. i think nvm bah ? lols. oh well.

I WANNA BE A SINGER ! all the more i cannot be fat. must be pretty ! (: though i'm not now, but, JIAYOU ! must work towards it ! but for now, studies. but now NOW, it's finishing the show lols. and i'll just sing like i do EVERYDAY (: it's part of me. idthink i've past a day without singing before ? LOL. dk cant rmb. but yeah, it's my only interest. what else can i do if i dont sing ? (:

really back to my show now. byebye ! update soon !

oh. finish watching already -.- zzz. maybe another ep ? heh (: okay cant. it's loading too fcuking slowly again -.- damnnnn. kk. nvm. lols. byebye.

singing, my only interest. singer, my dream job.

BEAST ILOVEYOU. you're my role model. i'll work hard to be a singer, just like you guys. famous, all due to hard work and talent(:

BEAST

2012-01-01T13:39:00.003+08:00

first picture is the proof ! that they bowed after receiving the award ! hahas :D

second picture is dujun ! who got the title of "best boyfriend no.1" for a show :DD

forgot if i mentioned before, but gikwang got a "newcomer award" of some sort, cant rmb what. but it's for the show "my princess".

so proud of all of them ~ BEAST boys ^^

time to faster chiong work. end up starting work at 2 when i planned to start at 12 ! #whatisthis 4pm got show lahhh. chiong arh !! byebye !

proud to be a beauty.

must focus !!

Disappointed with myself.

2011-12-31T14:51:00.001+08:00

I know I need to study desperately. I really need the scholarship, but why can't I do it ?! I really 读不进 !! How ???!!! T.T last day of 2011 le, what have I done for the holidays ? I didn't even read past topics ! Didn't practise erhu. So what was I doing all these while ?? Wth. Disappointed with myself. Now wanna study also cannot go in. Wanna sleep. Tsk sia !! J2 how ?? How to get good grades for A levels liddat ? How to get scholarship ? Supposed to study during holidays to catch up with whatever idk, now didn't, how ?

Feeling so damn helpless now. What can I do ?

cooking session with jing plus BEAST WON SONG OF THE YEAR !! :DD

2011-12-31T11:59:00.004+08:00

HELLO !

had a cooking session with jing ytd :D creamy spaghetti ! it was nice ! just ate it for breakfast again hahah. ytd's chawanmushi was a fail though ): cus we kinda forgot about it then overcooked for a while and forgot to turn down the gas sigh sigh, but it's okay ! lols. we also did fruit salad and tang yuan ! (: fruit salad was nice too. for tang yuan jing did chocolate-filled ones, empty ones, tang yuan which writes B,E,A,S,T on 5 of them hahas. heart-shaped with the word "jm", star-shaped ones with smiley faces and empty ones with smiley faces ! red and white.

BEAST WON SONG THE YEAR FOR KBS GAYO DAEJUN 2011 !! FICTION !! so happy for them last night ! like finally ! their hard work paid off. they totally deserved it. and it's really all thanks to beauties too, those who sms-ed in to vote :D they won with a high percentage [considering so many freaking kpop groups AND solo artistes both girl and guy] of 28% !!! winning the second place winner, infinite, of a freaking 10% !! cus infinite got 18%. IU's third, but idk her score. congrats to all winners, ESPECIALLY BEASTTT !! AHHHHH. love them always. and they were still so humble, they're always humble. they kneeled down and bowed to the beauties who were there !! like omgosh. when i saw the tweets i'm like SHOCKED. but when i see the video, MORE SHOCKED, AND HAPPY !! SO PROUD OF THEM :DDD

BEAST IS THE BEST !

wonder what actually happened to gikwang D: so many performances now but due to his injury, he still cant do aggressive exercises yet, which includes dancing. so he sits on a chair while singing. 看了就心痛。 GET WELL SOON, GIKWANG ! (: -heart-

suppose to do work soon. but i'm having problems dl-ing some songs zzz. faster dl then can faster do work, then will faster let down a rock and watch my show will less guilt for today lols.

dk why people so excited for 2012 to come. ideven want it to come. J2 is gonna be such a bore and chore and just suck lah. confirm worst than J1 this year cus it's gonna be more stressful ! TSK. suck lah. and i didnt even practise my erhu for this whole month, go back die liao loh. sianzxcxzcxzcz crap lah. tsk.

shall just finish dl-ing and faster sync and off com ! byebye !

BEAST, SARANGHEYO ^^

BEAST TOP 3 for allkpop award. WIN THEM ALL ! :D

2011-12-28T12:17:00.003+08:00

YAY !! for allkpop awards, beast is nominated under two categories; best male group and song of the year-fiction, AND THE GOOD NEWS IS...BOTH WITHIN TOP 3 NOW !! hope they win AT LEAST one. WIN BOTH LAHHHH :D and boyfriend is also top 3 for rookie group !! YAY YAY YAY ! both my fave groups are within top 3 for whatever they have been nominated for, such a good news :D happy for them ~ beauty/b2uty girlfriend :D

here's the link to the results :D http://www.allkpop.com/2011/12/2011-allkpop-awards-standings-update

can only vote for beast and boyfriend okay !! hahah. joking lah. but if the group you like and beast not clash right, then can vote for beast le ! :D

finding more beast pictures to transfer to my phone (: since i'm a beauty/b2uty now, must have more pictures of them ! (:

but later must faster finish work le. 28 dec liao sia. fast like wtf. i hope by the time school reopen i already not so "crazy" fangirl liao. hahas. must concentrate on studies !! so school reopen later okay, then got more time to calm down hahahah.

found quite a few pics le (: shall transfer now ! and off com study (so guai right ? :X lols) byebye !

BEAST IS THE BEST ! WIN THEM ALL !! JIAYOU !! :D

I LOVE BEAST BEAST BEAST !!

2011-12-27T22:16:00.005+08:00

CANT.TAKE.IT. BEAST TOO AWESOME LE !! HAHAHAHAH. I LOVE BEAST I LOVE BEAST !! AHHHHHHH -fangirl- heheheh. cant contain it. actually sec 2 onwards till before MAMA, i only like them cus of their voices and songs, very super duper nice. i like them all, that's why i say i like beast. then after MAMA, i went to learn more about them, like knowing the basics of their names, plus extra help from fish, i knew so much more ! then now after watching BEAST IDOL MAID, i know even MORE MORE ! AHHHH. see them practise, joke around, morning looks, without makeup, more about their character. like gikwang is the gullible and innocent one. hyunseung is the liar ! LOL. dujun take cares of his members really well, but he's lazy. dongwoon is hardworking with things his hyungs ask him to do and innocent as well. yoseob is the cute one, with funny ideas and super great voice. junhyung is the cool guy, but with also a soft side to his cool cover heh.

LOVE YOSEOB the most !! then GIKWANG and DUJUN. or maybe actually i like them all three the same ? dk yet hahaha. but the rest i also like !! :DDD they are all so likable. at first thought will not like junhyung, or like neutral towards him, but actually throughout the show can see his soft and cute side too ! so i like him too !!! :D so all also like MUAHAHAHAH.

BEAST IS MY NUMBER ONE LOVE GROUP ! i think take over kotic also :X heheheheh. LOVE THEMMMMMMMM. once snow pass me the beast stuff, i can look at them everyday ! LOLOLOL !! weeeeeeeeeeeeee. -excited- BUTTTTT. i would rather school not start so early. i can see them everyday on the computer, with their voices and movements, which is better, SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. school dont reopen !! thanks.

last ep of BEAST IDOL MAID not english-subbed !! DAMN ITTTT. FASTER SUB LAH TMD. sigh. may start with MTV BEAST ALMIGHTY anytime ! (:

but now i'm watching 最美丽的第七天 first. though it's loading fcuking slowly. -.- gonna sleep at 11pm tonight ! so no matter load finish anot just watch till then jiu sleep ! if not jiu 惨了. not healthy to sleep so late everytime.

saw BEAST's hard work. sometimes eleep less than 2 hours !! 心痛 D: but i guess this is one of what famous singers have to endure. and guess this is one of what fish is referring to, about being a celebrity is not all glitter and glam. there's lots of hard work and sacrifices. but still, after watching, i'm dreading the sleeping part, and the over-dancing part, BUT, i'm still willing to do it. i mean, singing is my own interest, what else can i do, and still be happy, other than singing ? even if my voice is not there yet, i'm willing to go for lessons and try my best, to be a singer. a famous one. like beast. slowly gain many many fans, and the fans can see the hard work they put in for them, for their understanding and support. i guess i'm willing to bear, and HAVE TO bear the pain of putting braces, since singers must look good. as long as it's not bad for my teeth, as long as they are strong enough and suitable to put, i have to bear with whatever pain it brings bah. just hope that no need to extract any tooth !!

braces, learn to sing dance put makeup style hair. so many things to do. oh, and learn new languages. so many things, but all can only start after A levels. for now, have to score well ! JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU !!!

okay now the show load so fast. must be my bro using the internet just now lols. so should i finish one ep ?? :X heh maybe can. see how bah.

okay end up finish watching ep 3 hahas. omg 11.41 ! faster upload some pics and sleep le ! good night !

i really love beast (:

Mind cafe ! Fun with theTAG.

2011-12-23T18:25:00.001+08:00

It turned out fine ! Yay ! Cus Remus say until what wanna leave if we going mind cafe, but in the end didn't HAHA. so it was all good. Played two games. Quite fun, though i didn't really get the second one ._. junhan wore specs today dk why. They were saying jinhui wore a new shirt ! LOL. say what cny so got new shirt, damn bad, but it's funny ! Lols. So I like xD Remus was wearing a nice hoodie shirt, or was it a jacket ? But nice. I like the blue, suits him well hahas. Celebrated soh's belated birthday with a cake we decorated ! Kiddy design but it's the thought that counts right ! Lols.

I'm missing him already. ALREADY. sigh. Wts. Suppose to take same bus, but Soh couldn't find her ezlink card so I just take the bus go home loh. He chose to stay with her to find so, whatever. I don't care.

The other one treat me so much better. I care this one for what ? Even if the other one just treat me as friends, at least he treat me as a friend better than he does ! Tmd. Still think of him for what ? Think of the other one better right ? -.- at least think of someone who treats me well.

Watching 乐在双城. Ruien's acting is damn funny ! So cute ! LOL. her "tsktsktsktsk" and weird expression damn funny and cute xD

Will bathe soon. So itchy the mosquito bite T.T

Dk when then can like today, full attendance for theTAG. maybe joyce's birthday ? But that's next year. Sigh. Dk lah lols. Byebye ! (:

我在想什么？

Mafan sia.

2011-12-23T09:01:00.001+08:00

Wlao troublesome sia. You all wanna watch go watch lah. Then we just talk or play games loh. Damn mafan lehs. Don't go sua. -.- mafan-ness outing for this group out of all the times. Sian lah tmd.

Woke up at like 6am this morning. Couldn't get back to sleep until 7.30. Now it's 9am. Make myself wake up, cus I told myself cannot sleep until 10.30 again. Cus if 9am still sleep confirm sleep until 10plus 11.

Meeting them at 1pm. Dk why I'm kinda dreading this. Wtf ? They are one of my closest friends, in fact after Jing fish ax they all, theTAG is so close to me !! I'm actually dreading this ? Sth wrong with me uh ? Maybe cus Remus too mafan Liao. And junhan like close to other people also. Then Soh like no need say. Joyce and jinhui okay lah. So I'm feeling "insecure" with them ? Dk.

Mum's back with breakfast ! Gtg byebye(:

finished watching 天幕下的恋人 ^^ love.

2011-12-20T23:19:00.007+08:00

just finished watching 天幕下的恋人。 although the ending was nice since 沈朗 and 阿诗 are tgt, but it's filmed kinda rushed. so like no feel sigh. but it's okay ! THEY ARE TOGETHER ! WEEEEE~ may start on a new show, dk yet (: not say new lah, but just havent watched before. also 郑嘉颖kevin and 周丽淇niki act as main character. got bosco also. and the xiaomei from under the canopy of love (天幕下的恋人). it's 最美丽的第七天(:

my blog post thingy is weird. different from normal. short of alot of things. sigh. hope tomorrow will okay bah. i go sleep le ! byebye(:

i actually ran on my own accord.

2011-12-17T18:55:00.005+08:00

HI. i just came back from running. i actually did it ! i ran on my own accord ! proud of myself sia. FIRST TIME ! i ran for 14mins35secs hahas. timed according to beast's songs, since i used them for running. sweaty like dhfklawnsbv now. but okay bah. 5 mins later BATHE ! then got show to watch le (:

tomo is too handsome, cute, hot, adorable, cool, everything that describes good looking. his instagram like ahhh. so many of his face ! lovelove ! ruk tur na~~ DAISUKI !! these are the three languages he can speak so, TA-DA ! all that represents my love hehe. tomo and beast ~ if only he's in beast too ! then WAHHHH. shuang dao ~ BUT IT'S OKAY ! KOTIC IS SO LOVED TOOOOO.

korean band loved : beast

thai band loved : kotic

no one can change this :D

chinese, fei lun hai and she !!

then solo are jay jolin and derrick ! woooooo

songs rock :D

talked to him. not replying me. oh well. forget it. listen to my songs while i bathe ! hahas. and ohoh ! i'm suppose to let snow send order by today ! so must decide on one more item ! >< zzz. byebye !

i actually ran, by myself, no one forced LOL. i used beast as my encourage-r. lols. cus i keep thinking, they went through so much ! if i wanna be a singer, this should be nothing ! SO KEEP RUNNING !

TOMO ! BEAST !

out with fish ytd at nex. and I LOVE BEAST !

2011-12-17T16:43:00.005+08:00

i need to cry. but i cant. idk why.

idk why i need to cry. but it feels as if it's stuck. i need to let it all out.

i was reading the whatsapp conver between me and him. i got some parts. and stuff. but, idk. i miss him. really. but yet if i see him, idk what to say. there's nothing to say. i'm so confused now. i'm suppose to be doing my work, and go run at 6pm later. but, i'm typing this, cus i really need to let it all out. idk what to feel. but i guess it'll be over soon. will be meeting them on wed i think ?

accompanied by beast now. i feel so safe. okay idk if you (yes you, the one reading this, no hidden meaning) can understand what i'm feeling now. but if you know me well enough, music is very important to me. songs are very important to me. i always believe music/songs have no language barrier. that's why i listen to songs of various languages, though i may not understand them, but it's the feeling you get when you listen, no ? (: beast is really a good role model i would look up upon. i really love them alot. no other kpop group can replace them. listening to their songs now when i'm upset really calms me down and allows me to forget about the emotional pain.

MUSIC IS FOOD FOR THE SOUL.

i strongly believe in this (: and beast's songs are really the healing potions to my soul.

went out with fish yesterday. it was a catch up session, and a beast remedial lesson HAHA. knew alot more about beast, that's why i love them SO SO SO SO SO SO (many SOs) much :D cant draw heart here. but yes I LOVE BEAST, WITH ALL MY HEART.

back to with fish hahas. we went to nex. but nothing to buy lah. end up borrowing a book each at the library LOL. ate abit for dinner then went to tamp to eat and talk again. we talked quite alot. i told her about my dream and stuff. really glad she was there to listen and give me her thoughts about it. i'm serious. really happy to have a true friend like her, that wont judge me, that will be childish and mature at the right times, with her thoughts. yeap. hahas. someone i can trust(: and the bonus is, SHE LIKES BEAST TOO ! :DD so wah, fangirls in action HAHAHA. :P BEAUTY in action actually heheh.

it's 5.18 now. heard an english version of fiction. the voice was okay, but what i really like is the lyrics. you can try and listen.

5.23 i'm suppose to faster do my work ! T.T lols. still listening to beast. sigh. kk. shall faster do my work first then go run, with BEAST'S songs !! i know i know, i'm getting irritating with beast here beast there, but cant blame okayyyyy. really pei fu them :D so just bear with me lah :X hahas. okay later got time then post. byebye ! oh and, i'm fine now ! see. hahas. quite fast eh. thanks to beast~ and blogger. and fish hahas.

i love beast.

chinese media workshop, ended(:

2011-12-10T00:13:00.003+08:00

made quite a few new friends from the workshop :D happy(: but lame is, last day then know some hahah. but my group derh okay lah. ytd day [fourth day] already shou already. wlao yaokuang today suan me like -.- got one time i go ask him "shut up" then he chua tio, say i fierce LOL. then he really thought i like damn pissed off or sth. but actually okay lah, i just abit pekcek cus i was doing sth cus he say not good ! tsk. then later still say me ): like evil lah. so ya. but all was fine. he added me on fb so HAHA. teck woon like a second chee siong, but more talkative and socialable, too sociable in fact, it's scary. LOL. his one meal is my AT LEAST three meals. his one meal is my one day amount of food hahaha, really damn scary. weiwei is like a typical nice china girl (: very friendly and gentle. like ouyang xue hahah. feiya is the crazy girl in the group. reminds me of wei leng. oh and at first yao kuang reminded me of clive. but now okay lah, they quite different, i think. hahas.

a few friend that i'm talking more to is zai chuang. he's a really nice guy, okay just today's observation lah, but he's very gentlemanly and nice. having sms chat with him now hahas. but so far he seems nice so yeah hahas. hope to keep in touch with most of them, if not all. some of them really like cute only hahah. so joker tgt. and because of this workshop, i know gracie gladys xinru and xinmei better hahas, so thumbs up too. and we got to see many artistes !! SUPER COOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. got dj, actress, news reporter etc. cool, really. :D and the food served were really nice. ohoh ! ntu's food so cheap ! cheaper than outside even ! [for some stalls] really damn hua suan to eat there hahas (Y)

may upload some pictures to here tomorrow or sth. anyway have to upload to fb so yea.

zc is not replying me liao -.- i think he fell asleep. oh wait, he just replied HAHA. wah he so good. say i sleep le then he go sleep xD if i like him, i think it's sweet. if i dont like him, it's creepy. but so far still good impression and stuff, i mean he's got my attention cus he's a gentleman ! and not bad looking or anything. yea, idk hahahah. whatever lah. sleep first LOL. and he's waiting for me to sleep first, so cannot be selfish right LOL. good night ! shall update you again tomorrow. maybe to rant since my homework are still incompleted )): JIAYOU. GOOD NIGHT, BYEBYE ! :D

缘分这事很难说。看看吧，顺其自然。

-.-

2011-12-03T10:36:00.001+08:00

You make me sound so noob you're the noob one -.- I watched the movie like either on the first day or one of the few days of its release lah -.- I even read the book -.- seriously.

And your point didn't make sense.

study session with two jhs ytd. no emo please. chiong work day ! jy !

2011-12-01T10:53:00.006+08:00

[the above picture is what friends and family do when you're upset hahas. i think it's freaking cute canxczcxzc pikachu is so cute omgosh heheh.]

helloooo.

went to jinhui's house with junhan ytd to study. but junhan was such a bad study partner LOL. keep playing games and distracting us lah, tsk tsk. after that went out for dinner and they went for movie, i didnt go. they go watch breaking dawn, like two guys go watch breaking dawn HAHA. before that damn funny. after all my reluctance and their non-stop "persuasion", i actually think okay, if can make it for the 8.15 slot, i go. if not idgo. in the end they became taxi crazy, desperate for taxi. HAHAH the scene was hilarious can. yeap then went home bathe tv sleep. only managed to touch on gp and physics though D: must continue today ! today is full studying cus tomorrow going out again :X scared my mum scold -.- but tomorrow must eh, only nearest day that can go out with yj ax qh and regina. so yeap, then at night mini 4C bbq ! weeeee :D

and remembered that got gsc work also. then 5 dec is the workshop. wah, seriously, damn regret signing up. reluctant to go zzzzzzzzzzzzz. must read abit of econs too. if not will guilty. :/

i must keep reminding myself, cannot think so much. dreamt of it. he hold my hand-wrist [around there], then idk how to respond, but in the end end up trying to hold it back with my fingers. but then i woke up i think, cant rmb. then ytd we sit like close only. like shoulder over shoulder kind. and he put a pillow between our heads and lie on it. and got one point in time he sit like slant then wanna lean back, but dk is he refrained from doing that, or cus when he lie back he'll lie on his phone, cus after that he put his hand at the back and took his phone away. but after that didnt lie also, so idk. but, i know i cannot think too much. he would have done it to anyone. anyone he's close to ? idk. but just know, dont think so much, dont think so much. MUST.STOP.IT. because he'll never like me. idwant him to treat me like how he treat the other girl. the other girl like him right, and he knows [idk is she confess or what], then now he just dao her and stuff. like sms only when he need to ask sth. and i heard that eg the girl sent "hey are you asleep ?" then he "nope" then she msg other things, he didnt reply le. when i heard it, i keep saying "wlao you damn bad sia, damn evil lah" etc etc, in my heart, yes i thought it's evil, but another thought is "omg, i better not do anything recklessly, idwanna end up like that girl" and he was also saying now no gf good, say his classmate got gf, kana kajiao like crazy. and PLUS, i know he really minds looks alot. actually i cant blame him, cus i do too. but, because i like him, and his criteria is that, i get like, low self-esteem. i've always been having low self confidence since young. it's improving now, but on my looks, not really ): idk idk idk. then i was like not speaking and stuff while we were walking from the interchange to tm. then both of them were like asking "why you so emo ?" i mean, they were talking about girl's looks, who pretty, or how judgmental they were on looks, how am i suppose to join in the chat ? -.- one reason is that, i think there's a second reason. maybe cus it's him saying, so idfeel comfortable with it. because i know, unless i become pretty, i'll never be the one. but even if i become pretty, i still may not be the one, cus i think know too long le, he may not like it. i was thinking of putting braces, but scared pain. put for myself ? put for him ? put for my dream job ? idk. oh continue with the story. then he see i like not happy or sth, then he came and like "aiya, but at the end of the day, character is still the most impt one lah right ?" i was like " yaya -.- like you mean it" then he "really. like pearl this one kind one, good lah. ho lah. bagus" and gave the thumbs up. i was like "-.- ya ya, really good. like real you mean it -.-" and we like continued this for 2-3 times lols. cus is really playing only. and i'm like "your words can trust one meh ?" "so you're saying i'm a liar ?!" "ya -.- then" "i'm not a liar, i just dont speak the truth..sometimes" "ya, and just now that one was the sometimes" then he got distracted cus someone else was talking to him.

if only he meant what he said.

sorry for that long para hahas. let it all out. actually still got one more thing, idk why, we always bicker -.- like meet right, cannot dont have 小吵 one lehs. either i start or he start. but not very serious lah, only short 小吵。but still, i wonder why.

hope this friendship will last. i hope for more than friendship, more than just 暧昧, but if really cannot, please let this friendship stay close. i cherish it alot.

people ask why i emo on twitter/facebook lols. but idk eh. not say really emo lah. just at that time thought of it then post loh. it's what i'm thinking mah. like after posting, one minute later i can xixi haha with you already. so idthink is emo ? either that or i'm just forcing myself to laugh, but it's so common that idrealise it lols. dk lah.

shopping tomorrow ~ then sing k ~ then shopping ~ wahhh shiok ~~ today shall really complete as much work as possible. if not guilty sia :X just ate "breakfast" -.- now's like 12.20. sigh. full ~ (: ytd's sadness is compensated ? hahas. i'm feeling quite okay now. talking to jing on msn :D my 爱爱之一。最爱之一。heheh. fish dk how liao. she was saying her work is burying her D: hope it's all over ! hahas. JIAYOU ! your ~~fans~~ friends are waiting for you HAHA.

one thing he said ytd, is something i've always believed in though [i mean even without him saying i also know and believe], it goes sth like this. friends there enough le. even if you dont have gf or bf, got friends enough le (: "got friends can already what" heheh. i think that's what my close friends around me are thinking also. like no need to mian qiang, while waiting for that person, it's friends who bring us out of any loneliness. that's why i believe that, even after having bf/gf also cannot isolate away from my friends (: 我真的爱你们 -hearts- [cant type the less than three symbol in blogger cus of html thingy hahas]

oh yaaaa. MAMA ! BEAST WON BEST PERFORMING MALE GROUP ! :DDDD so happy for them omgosh !! but tooo bad didnt win best male group, best group and album one. but NVM ! NEXT AWARD ! WIN THEM ALLLLLLLL. JIAYOU BEAST ! even if one day kpop not famous in singapore le, you'll be the only group i support ! love you BEAST :D

i was actually hyper for MAMA lols. wth sia. i didnt know i was so into kpop -.- starting to reaccept snsd and accept miss A. super junior is good too. but still, BEAST is forever number one in my heart :D i shall listen to more of their [snsd, miss A, super junior] songs when i have more time. actually dl-ed quite a few snsd's new album's songs in AMPed already hahas.

okay i shall off com ! time to full-charge study ! JIAYOU ! byebye(:

dont think so much. he would have done that to anybody.

just treasure the friendship that you have with him now, take any risk, and the friendship will be affected. please no.

我就是那么胆小，我就是那么不敢冒险，因为是你，因为代价可能就是失去你。

aching legs. hate mosquitoes.

2011-11-25T23:30:00.004+08:00

my legs are aching D: maybe it's all that running today. havent been exercising for months :X

i HATE, DETEST, ABHOR mosquitoes omgosh. these few days got quite a few mosquito bites ! DAMN IT. at night cannot sleep properly cus itchy zzz. DAMN IT. all go die lahhh !! :@

fun day at co bonding camp ! :D

2011-11-25T23:05:00.003+08:00

HELLO ! had a fun day today at co camp :D edward was in my group again HAHA. second time. and we received a nice name tag ! maybe tomorrow put (: still owe pictures oh no ! hahas. when sync-ing the phone then upload !

no more tickets for NYPCO concert. actually is, left only one. but go alone like emo only, so nvm bah ): oh well. next time bah. like mandopop please next time hahas. then i'll know more songs ! (:

cca tomorrow. last cca session for the year so i'll just guai guai go :D hehe. feel like wearing the name tag tomorrow HAHA.

didnt yet any "enthu" or "leader" prize D: but it's okay ! i was sort of a nominee :P heh.

my mum was being fcuking annoying just now. invade my privacy, IN FRONT OF ME. can you believe it ? wtf ? then she's the one at fault, still shout at me, wtf ? seriously ? cannot stand it when people invade my privacy, especially her since she's so FREAKING KPO -.- quarrel with my bro so many times then learn not to invade his privacy [by opening his letter, but i bet she reads it after my brother opens it, confirm one please -.-], then now me. wlao. never learn her lesson one sia. from horoscope, gemini is the sign that HATES people to invade their privacy the most. so she better dont come and re wo. if not, quarrel more li hai than my bro, then dont say didnt warn. and bring it on.

idk what else to blog liao lols. didnt do any work today D: physics lecture was a PURE WASTE OF TIME and my bus fare LOL.

michelle smsed. say if suggest overseas trip to yanyi will work anot. and i thought, YA. why we dont have overseas trip ?! ): should have one lehs.

maybe i'll just end here for today. abit tired. must go daiso soon, but cheap stuff heheh. good night ! byebye !

我的眼皮跳一下，代表你在想我。我的耳朵痒一下，代表你在讲我坏话。-周杰伦 [mine mine]

family and friends are loved. holidays too. hahas.

2011-11-24T22:34:00.003+08:00

hiii. long time no update. my com is loading FREAKING slowly. idk is the com slow or internet -.- but it's damn sian.

hurray ! last day of school for this year tomorrow, weehee :D hahah. but it means J2 is getting nearer :O ! nooo. ): sigh dk lah. shall work hard, play more, sleep well for this holiday before hell comes D:

amy knows ahkor ! HAHA. so qiao can. and yes, both of us are full of praises for him. cus he's such a great guy, though we didnt meet for..coming 5 years, but still, yeap hahas. love him, because he's my ahkor ! (: even though is primary school anyhow etc, but for me, if i 心甘情愿 call people jie or kor, it's forever, so yeaps hahas. i just posted on fb two statuses for pri sch jies and kors and sec sch's lala jie hahas.

other important people in my life : family [definitely, number #1 in fact] , jing and fish. and theTAG (: will thank them when the feel comes hahas. 不能没有他们. ax and qh are important friends too.

jc people are still not in my "important people" category. idthink i'm in theirs also anyway, so not guilty or anything.

jinhui is asking me to scold joyce because her actions and attitude is affecting her class [which is also junhan's class]. and junhan scold before no use, ask me scold -.- how i scold ?! i also dk that guy. she didnt even consult me or anything. and even if i talk to her, give her advice, she also wont listen one. then i say for what ?! zzz. it's like doing something meaningless. that time jinhui also liddat, i also scold. until i really cant stand it cus he's not listening, i just dont bother. it's irritating, really. to do something that you know will be a waste of time and effort.

honga dajie's emo. but he dont wanna tell me why ): 我有那么不值得信任吗？还是你以为我真的太小不懂事？我很懂事的 okay !

11.09. i'm tired. physically, kinda mentally too. he was giving me one word replies. like wtf ? like "thanks so much for replying" lah -.- i guess i really mean nothing to him. shall clean com and off com ! just made my 11.11 wishes hahas. closed my eyes when i was wishing, in the end end up more tired, wanna sleep liao hahah. kk. end here first ! byebye !

原来在你眼里，我真的什么都不是？

signed the book ! :D

2011-11-20T22:57:00.003+08:00

HI ! queued one hour plus to get my book signed. but it's signed so, yay ! :D will upload the pictures tomorrow ! i still owe the pic with the stuff i bought that day with fish, so yups, both tgt kay ? (: small blister caused by the new pair of shoes. suffered because of it throughout the time i was queuing T.T, but got to see 九把刀 and took video and photo ! :D one mediacorp artiste was there too, so i saw two famous people there ! :D thinking if i should go for the fan meet for 一泡而红. but i didnt buy the tickets yet, then dk got poster anot also. but can see xiaogui ehhh. dk yet hahas

so happy ! fish today say wanna pei me go watch NYPCO's concert ! AHH :DDD 还是你最好！！爱死你了！always the one to pei me for this and that HAHA. like jongbae that one, then now :D trying to find ways to get ticket, cus idk how to book through sistic -.-

study plan was an epic fail. ytd didnt study, today last minute know got the signing session, chionged and stuff, so yea lols. shall do it tomorrow morning before school. only 4 qns, jiayou do bah ! (: shall sleep soon since tomorrow need to wake up abit earlier to do work. plus today really kinda burned out, standed for one hour plus to queue ehh !! though cashier job was like freaking 7 hours in total, but still tired mah lols. plus maybe cus become cashier before hor, now like stand so long still okay sia LOL. but was suffering due to the shoes. luckily later go eat dinner that time my daddy go buy plaster ^^ stick liao immediate relief, shuang ~ HAHA.

and i watched one ep of forensic heroes 3 today ! wee. and found a new song. will update more about it next time. also downloaded wallpapers of 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 for my netbook, and found the official 九把刀 website and 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 fanpage. so yeaaaa. :D okay end here first ! tomorrow then update, or if got time (: byebye ! night !

请让我，继续喜欢你

need to study lahhh.

2011-11-20T09:18:00.004+08:00

end up not studying ytd zzz. read the book and watched tv instead.

i've not gotten a full rest yet, and it's sunday already zzzzzzzzzz. whyyyyy. sianzxcxzxcxzzc. let's see tomorrow's timetable. lessons from 10.30-4.30 sigh. good thing : no need wake up super duper early. bad thing : long day, all three subjects is covered. and econs is like a freaking thick set ! it's like two pure physics and chem textbook add tgt. i'm serious. crazy sia.

idk where's he. no news from him for a few days. got what drama camp. but then didnt talk etc. dk lah.

it's 9.22am now. shall off com soon, go watch doraemon ! and eat breakfast (: need to start studying today !! shall do..maths first. maths like need to hand in or sth ? even though i got a few more eps of forensic heroes left to watch. aww. and it's 大结局 in hk already ! i mean already over like two days back or sth. sad ): means internet one also. i watch until 25. like 29 is last ep. sigh ): after forensic heroes, what to watch ?! lols. okay, shall end here for now. byebye !

你在哪里？我好想你。

sian shit. emo. bad mood.

2011-11-19T17:58:00.004+08:00

frustrated is my current mood. idunderstand why people dwanna go for co concert ! ): saddddd like zzzzzz SAD.

please dont give me false hope about stuffs. like if dont want/cannot/impossible etc, please dont say maybe or stuff like that. i'll 白高兴一场，then be disappointed, which i hate -.-

hope someone can pei me go watch. NYP's co like really damn zai can.

suppose to study 1.5 hours today. until now still havent start -.- shall start at 6.30 or sth.

cca today was okay. i broke a string by accident, cus i almost dropped it. luckily didnt. the head and body didnt break, phewwww. luckily caught it on time hehe. practising three songs now : nobody, matsuri and hao han ge. these songs not bad lah. but why they dont wanna let us play those mandopop or kpop songs ? more interesting mahhh. sigh. oh yea, fumeng printed out 青花瓷 score sia !! cool sia. got time i wanna go learn how to play that :D and i wanna try if can play 那些年 with the erhu anot (:

bad mood now. dk why. just freaking bad mood. no mood study sia. die. must study. how ? go read book first. must calm myself down. emo shit. byebye

i hate liars, dont lie to me.

i'm someone who forgives easily, but NEVER forgets.

food fair.

2011-11-18T23:51:00.004+08:00

had a day out with joyjoy and jinhui today. to the food fair ! heheh. eat until super full, stomachache D: but now okay liao. the "taiwan oyster omelette" was such a disappointment. different from taiwan one can !! -.- waste my $4. but overall was nice experience (: we like always go food fair tgt hahah. food lovers. but we dont try free food -.- kinda defeats the purpose of going to food fair zzz. hahas but nvm ! still eat ~ ate satay, oyster omelette, milk tea, chicken cutlet [the 豪大大鸡排] taiwan derh, and tried "卤肉饭" and jap pizza. yeap.

funny thing that happened today: we were walking in the food fair, then this guy selling coffee one was like "the girls walking pass me, must drink the coffee." then we just walk, dont care, then he "dont pretend never hear and ignore me" then we over there laughing only HAHA. damn funny sia the guy. but he bo bian, we just walk damn fast away xD he said in chinese luh. didnt see his face though, aww. hahas. but was funny.

nice thing i did today: helped two pairs of lost couple at the mrt just now. tanah merah station. they dk which side to take then can go to where they wanna go. and jinhui and i helped them ! so i very happy cus i helped two pairs of couple ! i mean, we've all been tourists before. we're always very grateful to the help locals give so that we can find the place we wanna go easily and make the trip enjoyable instead of time-wasting and frustrating. so yeaps, i'm very happy to be able to help them (: so this is the nice thing i've did today :D

lessons start le. i'm like confused only. so not in the studying mood D: damn sian. cannot absorb. but CANNOT ! i'm gonna study AT LEAST 1.5 hours tomorrow after cca. MUST okay. any subject will do. must understand the lecture that already passed. seriously blur lah, especially physics. maths i also blur, econs still hai hao, only scared cannot memorise. so must study ! 1.5 is okay lah. and must read at least 3 chapters of my book !! :DD so enjoying it, but keep no time to read. later maybe read one chapter then sleep (:

gonna meet more people during the holidays. honga dajie with erjie and ahkor. then jing with qianhui and aixuan. then maybe another one with fish. then co dinner. theTAG movie marathon etc. so manyyyy. hahas. all the more i need to study during free times. idwanna regret not studying ): lazy but, it's a must, so JIAYOU !

thinking about him less now. friends and activities are great pullers. hehe. pull me away, so still okay. now abit worry about others liking me or sth. i damn scared this kinda thing. eliza go scare me -.- damn scared can. idwant sec 2 history to repeat. hope it's not true !! and another one, hope also is i ownself worry too much, nonono kay (: ALL FRIENDS ! (:

it's 12.10am now. i should be sleeping -.- the damn cca is tomorrow in the morning, wtf. sian shit. shall read one chapter of the book first ! (: byebye !

不喜欢就别勉强了，我还好的。

So she's brother or someone you love ?

2011-11-17T21:58:00.001+08:00

I read whatsapp, you sound super concerned. As a friend, or just that you have slowly liked her ? Idk, maybe I think too much le bah. Dk lah fcuk.

so what will your response be it is was me ?

2011-11-17T20:41:00.004+08:00

forgot to post. quite abit to say today also.

going out for dinner with some of theTAG people. but he's not going. we were talking on msn just now. he say i say despo. no loh, please. i just shoot him back "we can live without you one can", but it's a lie. i would really hope that he can come with us tomorrow, but, oh well.

just now in theTAG whatsapp chat, he say got one girl like him. and he said "just say here lah" when joyce asked if can tell us. and then he continued "not that i care anyway" "classmate" "she likes me so yea" sth liddat. and he mentioned sth about her asking him the same qn again, which i'm guessing it's about confessing and stuff. so i'm like, if i do that one day, will he also think or tell others "not that i care anyway". seriously. it sounds damn evil. not that cus i like him then think is evil, is like, anybody who says things like that, is quite evil/cruel. even if he didnt say it in front of her. actually one thing maybe happy is that, he can be himself and say what he wants with us, means he trust us, and trust us not to judge, which true friends should be, not to judge. i'm not judging him here, just that when i saw him type that, i felt, something. maybe i'm just really afraid that he'll say that to others about me if i one day do sth liddat. idk.

everytime just think of meeting him only. i seriously dk. 他又没什么好的，但我就是情不自禁。我自己都受不了自己的行为。受不了自己的无能，为什么总是不能放下。seriously. idk is like him what sia.

two double period lectures today. can die lols. each period become one hour zzz. during the freaking 3 hours break, went to shaun's house to sleep. cus library sleep damn bu shu fu. his house got air con ! hahas. so i sleep his room, he sleep his brother's room. quite awkward, but different room, and i locked the door so, yea. -SAFE- HAHA. his dog like scary only. at first like very cute, wah, after that noisy sia. scratch the door, keep climbing on me, and make noises. lols idk. super NOT used to it. 想当年，when lucky was still around, he like quiet only. at most cough etc. then wont keep jumping on people one. my friends' dogs always jump on people, i have NO idea why. so different from lucky. lucky so 乖. at most lick 一下, then lay in your lap and stay with you, so 乖 ^^ love him like you cant imagine :D 爱死它了。 miss him so much. i hope he's in a better world, living peacefully with no pain and all the nice food ! maybe he's with my ahma. then she dote on him, and he accompany her also hahas. hope they're all happy up there(:

wanna go out with friends more ! but i need to study more too ! and i'm finally reading from the book ! yay ~ chapter 11 next :D loving it. i shall offline now !! it's 9pm ! got 行医！byebye !

我喜欢你。

SUPER INCONVENIENT

2011-11-15T19:03:00.002+08:00

retarded shit. my couldnt post my post just now, because it got linked to my hotmail email account, WTFFFFFF ?!?!?! bullshitttttt. dogpooooooo. OMG. :@ INCONVENIENCE TTM.

packed my room, though it's suppose to be full-slack day T.T + shopping ytd !

2011-11-15T18:29:00.005+08:00

hello. some pissed off stuff and some good stuff. pissed off first ?

freaking google is connected to youtube. for idk what f reason. now i sign in to blogger and "remember me", then youtube will be the gmail i use for blogger, then i need to sign out and sign in to my old youtube acc. freaking troublesome YO ! -.- idk why they wanna change to this system. and someone pointed out a very good point, i type in my own words, it's sth like "it's not secure, cus if this gmail gets hacked, all blogger, yt etc all also cannot go in" sth liddat. you get my point right ? WHICH I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THAT PERSON ! like seriously. just leave it alone, why keep changing ?! fb changing, twitter idk maybe changing also (?), now yt and blogger also have to be affected by google. wts. sigh. idk.

now to happier stuff (:

tired from all the packing. packed my room, AGAIN. sigh. jc notes are thick and many. wanna punch hole also difficult tmd. the file no space liaozzxcxcxczc. crap. oh well, at least my second table is neater now. J2 come hor, confirm messy again one, NOOOOO T.T

opened my book this morning ! havent read yet but, got poster ! :DD i stick on my wall liao ^^

in love with the OST of "you are the apple of my eye". and some songs by hebe. oh boy oh boy. hahas. GO LISTEN !! (:

been thinking of him lesser these days. ohoh, updates on ytd first !

WENT OUT WITH FISH MEHMEH YTD ! :D had a fun day shopping, until legs damn pain ! but okay now. at least we did a meaningful shopping ! got stuffs we wanted to find so YAY :D and my mum paid for the shoes so, i didnt spend as much as i thought, so double YAY. LOL ! we got ourselves a "friendship ring", though it's not EXACTLY a friendship ring since they dont have our names on it, but it's from the same packet, and two, so yeaps, we're gonna wear it everytime we meet(: we also bought three black badges each, of which one is the same, so we're also gonna pin that too, when we meet hahas. i bought a top, footwear, badges, ring, book, hairband and a pair of earrings. OMG wait, where are my earrings ?! i go find.. okay i found it hahas phew. almost forgot about it. yeap, i think that was all i bought ytd. saved on food money since lunch and dinner was settled at home, so yeap. not bad hahas.

next outing is CO outing i guess ? 22. unless theTAG wanna have movie marathon before that hahas, so let's see bah.

where was i ? oh, i thought of him lesser now. maybe cus these few days either go out, or pack things, busy everywhere. sigh. and i thought today was supposed to be a full-slack day, NOOO it's gone T.T tomorrow have to go damn early to school to hand in I&R, then evening cca, wtf ? seriously. that time one i pon cus it's ridiculous for me to go cca when i'm home the whole day. then tomorrow, AGAIN. wtf seriously ? hope no jc outing tomorrow or anything, i wanna stay at home and stone. idmind just stoning or sitting on the comfy bed/sofa reading my book. than to go out with them :X if sec sch friends MAYBE still okay. BIASED ! oops :X but please lah, sec sch how long sia, jc not even one year can. cant blame me(:

scared i'll think of him tomorrow. actually as i blog, you can already see that i'm thinking about him all these while since i keep mentioning him. sigh. cant help it. wanna see him so badly, though he not say very shuai :XXXX LOL ! OOPSSSSS. but still, just wanna see him. miss him so much.

probably gonna bathe soon. body so sticky !! eee. didnt watch forensic heroes today. tomorrow then watch bah(: and catch-up tv ytd's xing yi. gonna just off com, and relax(: okay update next time ! maybe post a photo of what i bought ytd tomorrow, byebye ! (:

你还是要幸福

把头发梳成大人模样，穿上一身帅气西装。。[那些年] i like how this part sounds. hahas.

nice emo chinese songs (:

2011-11-13T17:30:00.004+08:00

oh well, i'm done with I&R ! for now. and hopefully forever HAHA.

some misunderstandings in theTAG. but seems fine now.

listening to 那些年 now. really like it (: alot of emotions.

some nice emo songs to intro : 那些年，寂寞寂寞就好，还是要幸福，海枯石烂，好的事情

should go try listen, really very nice hahas.

thinking of him less today. very thankful to my shows and games, and newspaper o.o

i should develop a habit of reading, it's kinda like a good habit(: finding good books to read, hopefully not to start off with too thick a book hahas. i think if have this habit, will have even lesser time to think of him, which is good. reading "e-book" off my iphone, 那些年，我们一起追过的女孩。第六章 liao. (:

was concerned for him just now cus of the misunderstanding between one of us and us. but it seems he didnt need it very much, so why bother ? -.-

thinking of changing blogskin again, when i just edited the template ytd -.- but this one like very mini eh. but it's still raining alot these days. so, idk.

我甚至真心真意的祝福，永恒在你的身上先发生。。[还是要幸福]

明天开始，这一切都结束。。[还是要幸福]

Bangkok Traffic Love Story (:

2011-11-13T16:47:00.005+08:00

hello ! just finished watching Bangkok Traffic Love Story. dk why this show didnt cry lehs, strange hahas. but i think other thai movies are nicer, like Hello Stranger and A Crazy Little Thing Called Love. but this movie was number one in box office in 2009, so yea. idk. but not say not nice lah, is not bad also (: as long as is romance genre then not bad one lah hahas -biased-

eating yam paste bread now, so yummy ! -loves-

meeting fish tomorrow for shopping ! :D

should be doing my I&R soon. it's almost done, i think, so yay ! (: okay see if wanna post later(: byebye !

bangkok traffic love story (:

forensic heroes ep 23, waiting for 24 T.T

2011-11-12T15:46:00.005+08:00

last time spammed too many. today forgot to blog hahas. hello !

just finished watching forensic heroes ep 23. 24 i think next week then have T.T shouldnt have chionged it lah. sian. now idk what to do. watch koizora again ? might as well watch 听说. but ting shuo watching during movie marathon, watch now then what's the point. sigh idk.

still think about him, but it's kinda less painful now. maybe cus got shows :D oh i know what i can do already ! i missed an ep of 行医！！cus went out with them that day. ahh, okay i go watch hahas.

waiting for mr chung to reply me before i can do i&r zzz. okay byebye !

你会想我吗？

I won't mention her again.

2011-11-11T21:38:00.001+08:00

At least I've learnt something from our quarrel, I won't mention her again. I won't. So that we wouldn't quarrel again. Now the feelings are all on you, idk what will happen, idk what will be the consequences, but 我别无选择。你是唯一。you're the only one.
The shows I watched today all have couple couple lovey dovey one. Makes me smile. Idk why. Maybe cus 弥补 what I don't have, so happy ? Or just that this lovey dovey happiness is contagious. Oh well. At least it pulled me out of the emo state, so it's good(:
Have been spamming blog post lately. Hahas. Sorry. But I can't say on fb, nor on twitter, since he'll be able to see. So write here the best bah. (:
我想见你。

peace ?

2011-11-11T12:32:00.005+08:00

cant you see it's an act of jealousy ? are you blinddd omg.

i dont wanna quarrel with you okay. i hate quarreling with you. please dont do it. now i managed to stop it and change the topic, next time ? can you just stop it also ? please dont let me keep doing this by myself. it's very tiring, because you matter to me, but idk if i matter to you as much. so if we're friends at least, dont let me bear this on my own, okay ?

独自为自己擦去所有的眼泪。。

那些年，错过的爱情。好想拥抱你，拥抱错过的勇气。。

emo all over again.

2011-11-11T10:50:00.003+08:00

i'm missing you already. why liddat. throughout the night and when i wake up keep having that blur image of you x.x

everytime after every meeting jiu zhe yang. wth. ): torturing. idk how long i can tahan, really.

can all these just end. if you cant like me, then can i also stop liking you. CANT TAKE IT ! seriously. one day i'll end up gao bai-ing indirectly, AGAIN. cant stand it.

just finished watching 你在囧什么。cried like crazy. dk if it was the right time to watch it, cus i was already emo, then emo even more. now listening to sad songs. 寂寞寂寞就好。crying all over again. what's wrong with me.

why cant you like me ?

why cant i stop liking you ?

我寂寞寂寞就好，你真的不用来我回忆里微笑。。

那些年，我们一起追过的女孩。you are the apple of my eye.

2011-11-11T00:03:00.003+08:00

firstly HAPPY 11 11 11 ! :D hahas

went out with junhan jinhui and soh just now (10 nov lols). watched 那些年，我们一起追过的女孩。 you are the apple of my eye. it's a nice movie ! (: didnt get to sit beside him but, oh well, hahas. i enjoyed the movie anyway. decided to make this private anyways. so that he'll never know, or at least feel stress or uneasy due to me liking him. and at the same time, got a place to just let it out, and only the few i trust will know (:

i think i should win the best actress award. he's right in front of me, yet i can act as if nothing is going on. and i thought i dont act in front of people, yet i was acting throughout and i just realised now. i dont know how long can this last. but i'll try. i really want to tell him but, idk how to. i'm not ready for any consequences. i dont want to spoil this friendship.

你对我的小小体贴，是我的一厢情愿，还是你说不出的温柔？我真得很想知道。

today they kept talking about joyce. she and her crush got alot of problem. she's becoming too extreme. i know i wont be like her, and i dont want to be like her. i dont want to give him stress. i think i cant stand spamming people anyway LOL. but hope i dont fall so deep. i really cant control. idk what to do ): someone save me ?

talking to him now, about the show hahas. not very personal but, i just like talking to him. idcare what it is about, as long as we are talking, i'm happy enough(: when can we be more than friends ? idk.

我真得很喜欢，很喜欢你。

就是因为幼稚，才会喜欢你那么久。

我要这个世界，因为有我，而有些改变。而这个世界，就是你的心。

在这世上，有很多事情做了，都是徒劳无功的啊。

我真的很喜欢你

2011-11-10T23:18:00.001+08:00

我真的很喜欢你。
Every time after meeting you, I reach home and start to miss you. Idk why eh. Just like auto liao.
Just now when only the two of us are walking, there was that awkward silence. Was there any meaning in between that awkward silence ?
You ask me if we'll still rmb each other after we get married. I said yes immediately. Of course I'll still rmb you. I always will. 倒是你。idk who am I in your life now. Will you still rmb me ? Why can't it be like we are the ones getting married to each other next time ? Why must be married to others and rmb each other ? ): idk what I'm saying now. If only you knew. If only you knew. How much pain I'm bearing alone. If only you cared. If only you felt the same way. :'(

finished watching 原点 ! :D

2011-11-09T21:00:00.001+08:00

finished watching 原点! :DD okay lah. watch liao wont angry lehs hahas. next on list is forensic heroes and some movies o.o but before i start or continue watching, i have to finish i&r ! suppose to do now, but now just nice 9pm. watch tv first (: later then do ! byebye !(:

bitch. _|_ and end of OP ! :D

2011-11-09T17:27:00.006+08:00

disclaimer ! ranting for this paragraph.

wts. what i dont understand one. i'm like a love doctor or sth. of course i know if one week see one time, that one time very precious, wanna see longer. this is COMMON SENSE. you dont even need a love doctor for that. but see less abit will die issit ? is not i dont understand, is you desperate. you know what does desperate mean ? you know how to spell ? D-E-S-P-E-R-A-T-E. DESPERATE. yes that's how you spell it, and YES that describes you. irritating hai tan. seriously. when you gave me the look and said "aiya, you dont understand one lah", you know how hurting it is ? i know you got bf now very happy lah, but no need to show off right ? what kind of friend are you wtf. you think i never experience before meh ? please lah, this kind of thing no need you to teach okay. one year no bf then say like wah very long dont have. so sui bian. if your one year means you very li hai, then dont even bother comparing with me okay. at least i not so 不甘寂寞 as you. irritating faggot omf. get lost can. stupid hai tan.

okay end of ranting hahas. it's end of OP today !! wooo ! hope i didnt answer my question too badly x.x sit in for other groups, one girl talking nonsense in Q&A lols. idk what to say. i'll probably fail her for Q&A if i were the examiner. sounds evil, but it's the true, everyone feels the same. even her group members ask her dont talk so much liao, lols like seriously, if group member also have to end up talking to you, it's almost screwed. omg i better stop saying, i want my A for pw derh (:

watching show after this (: tomorrow going out with theTAG for shopping. monday shopping with fish ^^ hearts. sunday like got cip, early in the morning wtf. -.- i think no bus to go, so idk how. have to do I&R also. maybe do one draft later. spamming sad songs now, but i cant seem to sing it out, i think i must really go learn how to sing, cus now like flat flat derh ))): or dk why like cannot project my voice ! T.T okay end here first. omg my throat pain :'( okay byebye !

可以见你了

Sigh.

2011-11-06T19:34:00.001+08:00

I really want a boyfriend. It's like so, nice. Idk. Sigh. Dk what to say. Only can 顺其自然 bah ):

finally finished editing template.

2011-11-05T12:58:00.003+08:00

finally finished editing template omg. thanks to jinhui who helped me check the links ! (:

i should start on my I&R now ! then later can enjoy and maybe study maths ? hahas.

until now that thing still havent come sia. late like 4 days le ! ): dk when then come. sigh.

dk if i'm still going overseas this year-end holiday ): okay byebye !

when then come aiyoyo.

i wanna go overseas.

friends are important.

must beat her (at least) for next exam.

2011-11-05T11:41:00.003+08:00

CCA yesterday was okay. my teacher called me 那位小朋友, and idk if it's a good or bad thing lols. we're playing nobody(:

my a levels point is 42.50. it's a big improvement since mye LOL. mye was like 15. but i lost to someone i shouldnt lose to, so i'm feeling damn irritated by that. she got like 46.5 i think ? i must beat her for the next exam. seriously. how can i lose to her ? CANNOT MAN ! must win her, AT LEAST.

being listening to S.H.E's songs these days. very meaningful and motivating, for girls especially. alot feelings. training my voice also, so yups. girls voice.

shall do I&R soon. maybe later then post. edit template ! byebye(:

听了想哭，唱了更想哭。。

changed blog skin

2011-11-04T16:06:00.004+08:00

HELLO ! i've changed my blogskin since the previous one the bg got screwed up ): i've decided to use this first cus it's been raining almost everyday these days so yups, why not just use this first ? (: i may change it next year or when the raining season ends (: so those who has helped me select the skins, dont be angry kay ! :D your opinions are still considered ! hahah.

anyway, been busy with pw stuff since OP is coming, and I&R is also part of the assignment. shall do I&R if i've the time after this post since there's CCA later -.- what a bore. i mean, idmind playing the erhu but, i'm not really good at it so it's kinda frustrating and like so bored when i can do other stuff that i like or like pw work since it's better if i complete it soon or give more drafts so that it'll be of better quality and when i'm done with it, i'll be free ! then i can start on some shows and revise my work. sigh. dk lah.

went to the arcade for a while ytd after project. had fun with the drums hahah. but at the same time, it's the arcade that i went with him and some other friends for his birthday. i went to that area where he played the colour button pressing game. hahas. think of him, colour blind, so he spammed the button. like crazy liddat, anyhow spam, then still can win HAHA. damn funny. and that was where he almost left the shirt his teacher bought for him. so yups, everytime i go there, i'll be reminded of that. sigh. oh well. just memories come jiu hao, no feelings please.

but about feelings, idk. it's either one of them. but none of them are possible. i mean, even if me and him really be together one day, it probably wouldnt last since the feelings' are all different one after experiencing so many things. the other one even more impossible. he's kinda changed too, and his heart i think still got someone so, no point. but idk, just will think of them loh. but heck lah hor. think only what. lols.

i must jiayou for studying and pw le really. must get A for A levels. ohoh ! i'm happy cus ytd econs moderate, i PASSED ! from a freaking U to a PASS omfg. i was elated HAHAH. shall put in more effort for econs, i guess it really pays off ? but A levels cannot depend on moderation, must ownself get an A ! idk how much it'll take me to get there, or if i could even get there, but JIAYOU ! i must try. for every subject, even my suckiest subject now, physics. i got an A for that for O levels ! how can i do badly for A levels ?! NOOO. so i MUST jiayou !! okay i'm just talking to myself kay so can ignore, i'm not crazy LOL. okay shall end here for now. and i havent finish editing my blog stuff yet so, shall either do it now or later (: byebye !

不该再想你。。

I'M BACK WITH SHOW REVIEWS ! :D

2011-11-02T16:35:00.003+08:00

HELLO !! :D i decided to blog before doing work so yups ! here i am (: this post shall be about movie/show review ? i promised that time but i forgot so, here it is ! (:

i watched a movie called "a crazy little thing called love", it's in thai :D it's quite a long ago show but because thai is not very like, not a commonly used language in singapore, not many may know about it, so here i am ! playing my part to introduce thai stuff to you guys ! it's a romance-comedy genre so i recommend girls to really watch it :D plus the male lead is really cute <3 MARIO MAURER. [no discrimination to guys] guys should really watch it too if you enjoy romance-comedy(: the female lead is pretty too ! [after the conversion, you'll know what i mean later]

so this show is about an "ugly" girl, nam [which actually means water in thai], who fell in love with our very cute and handsome shone [which i think means light ? sth liddat]. she tried to get his attention and stuff and tried to be more beautiful for him. which in the end she did. but in the process there were quite a few "obstacles" and 小插曲 [sth like stuff that happened in between them]. yups. but whether they were together at the end ? watch it to find out :D oh and, yes shone is aware of nam existence. he took her as a friend so yups, it's not all-that-pathetic for nam (: i would probably rate it 3.8/5 ? yups. worth the watch(:

i'm currently watching 原点 [the beginning] and 法政先锋III [forensic heroes III].

the beginning is a singapore-malaysia production. it has been shown on mediacorp channel 8 before, but because of 林宇中 Rynn, i've decided to watch it again :D currently finished watching ep 21. yeaps. it's about three good friends and their own stories. their own problems of either being poor, or abandoned or office politics and stuff. there's romance, friendship, family and crimes inside so ya, kinda complicated ? but it's alright from ep 1-20. the real irritating trouble starts from 21, and so idk if i'll wanna continue watching since i'll be angry most of the time at the later part of the show but, oh well. maybe i would, just for rynn hahaha kidding. maybe just watch bah, see how.

FORENSIC HEROES IS OHMYGOD. it's been my all-time fave ever since season 1. all three seasons are AMAZING. if you have the time, ignore whatever shows, WATCH THIS. HAHAHAH. I ABSOLUTELYLOVE IT TTM. great show, great cast [though season 3 is a different cast altogether, but they're still great], great plot and everything. everything is good about this show hahaha. okay i'm starting to sound bias ? but it's really nice ! currently finished ep 12. but since it's only uploaded to ep 14 on the internet, i've decided to just CONTROL, and wait till more eps are out before i start watching, if not the case left undone and ep not out, idk if i can take it HAHA, exaggerating ? but it's quite true, so i rather not risk it(:

kk. maybe i should start on work soon, or now. or should i start with one ep of show first ? HMMMM. hard decision ! zzz. maybe i'll watch a short clip ! ryanhiga's show, 35 mins. yeap, i'll watch that. maybe have a review too if possible hahas byebye !

法政先锋III

有在想你吗？又在想你吗？

A levels Chinese paper tomorrow, wish me luck !

2011-10-30T22:05:00.001+08:00

Taking A levels chinese paper tomorrow, WISH ME LUCK ! omg. Hope I can get an A ! I must get an A for this ! Please bless me with an A for this !! Please please, 拜托了。pearl ang Xue ting, 加油！！你行的！拿 A ! You can do this. Good luck :D I shall have an early night tonight, so tomorrow less tired(: hope can fall asleep though hahah byebye !

暧昧

2011-10-24T23:04:00.001+08:00

我们都是一样，在暧昧里得到安慰。越是没有伴侣，越是和某某搞暧昧。我希望可以一直很暧昧的在一起，但更希望你能真真正正，名正言顺的和我在一起。如果你是真心的，真的可以忘记过去的和我在一起，我想，我一定会答应。问题是，你根本就连暧昧都少给了，我是应该有自知之明吧？别死缠烂打了，别想太多了。去睡吧，晚安(:

Damn it lah, reach home still miss.

2011-10-24T16:53:00.001+08:00

Sian sia~ just reached home, still thinking about him. Siannn. Can I just go his school now LOL. 好想抱抱他。really hope one day can 抱一下，就算是友谊的拥抱也无所谓，反正我知道，情侣的拥抱是不可能得到的。真的好想他
Maybe I should private this in case anyone else other than fish sees this lols. But I forgot how to :O go try(: see wanna use lock or blogger derh block.

I'm only an item to you.

2011-10-24T16:24:00.001+08:00

To you, I'm just an item right ? The perfect height arm-rest. Someone you can play 暧昧 with. And especially with your looks now, I don't expect your sight to stay with me for long anyway. But it's just quite sad and weirdly hard for me to accept.
I thought I finally let myself be free from him and our memories, idlike anyone. But then you "came back". I guess the only way I can be free away from this is to spread my feelings with many others, so that all not strong, and I won't be bothered by it so much.
Maybe I can't blame you for 玩暧昧，since I play that with you. 一个巴掌拍不响 right ? I guess I brought it upon myself, thinking 你会认真的想这件事 if we "played" long and 暧昧 enough, but I guess no. Maybe by any chance, you still miss her and are waiting for the day you all 复合。I'm just in position to smile and congratulate you, or listen when your sad (you don't even do this now), 一直都是这样吧。
Idk what to say, what to do. Just leave it bah, 我不想连好朋友都做不成。

Wts ?

2011-10-23T10:08:00.001+08:00

Wts..ytd dreamt about someone. But I damn long didn't dream about that person liao eh. Somemore "quite close" in the dream. :/ sian lah. Don't want feelings to come back please. Isn't he past tense ?! He won't like me anyway, SO FEELINGS DON'T COME BACK PLEASE. omgosh.

4C BBQ today again hahas. Must chiong all my Chinese and pw work today ! Tomorrow all due zzz. GAMBATTE ! time for breakfast :D byebye.

感觉好乱

-.-

2011-10-13T15:51:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I really feel jc people very zzz. Idk. Like just now got one video, the electrical wire thingy, the birds feather all drop off. Then funny mah, so all laugh. Then me and another friend think..why the feathers will suddenly drop ? Then we ask one friend who said she've watched alot of times. Then she say, cus fly up so feather drop lah. Then I'm like, huh why birds fly all the feathers will drop ? Lols makes NO SENSE AT ALL. then she was like "you all got watch cartoon one anot ? Is just bird fly then all the feathers drop out lah" I'm like -.- I mean IT DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE ! like totally senseless. Pokemon also got sense one what. Then she say what "I think this is the difference between sec sch and jc. Sec sch everybody just laugh and will get it. Jc think so much" I'm like thinking whuttt. Dunman people watch Le also will question one what (after laughing lah). Is just your school stupid or sth lah, how I know sia. Or maybe it's just you. Don't even know when's national day WHAT ?! She's the closest jc friend, but when she says stuff like this, it's just 欠打 all the way man. Cannot stand it sia wlao. You ownself don't think then say people cannot understand cartoon. Cartoons make sense one HELLOOOO ? Then after that another friend jiu thought of it why feathers will drop, and the reason MADE SENSE. and concluded it. So lame lah wlao. Dumb sia. Pekcek only, cannot stand it.

Otw home now ! Meeting fish mehmeh later HAHA. stomach abit weird, skirt too tight ? Lols. Fat liao or alot of air inside zzz. Kay update next time ! Byebye.

END OF PROMOS !

2011-10-04T11:20:00.001+08:00

It's end of promos !! HAPPY ! time for shows on com hahas. Maths was not bad but my answers different from some people sia. Sian. Hope I'm right but still scared lols. I'm gonna redo that question zzz. Time to play !! Otw home now. Can arrange to yue people go out Liao hahas. Okay update next time ! Maybe after watching shows to give brief reviews hahas. Byebye !

Retarded.

2011-10-01T21:35:00.001+08:00

Wts. People are ignoring me on fb and twitter. WTF ?! gnd. Pekcek. 他妈的你们，我跟你们讲，本小姐不稀罕！不应就不应！他妈的以为我管啊？might as well go study. Make me pekcek only wts. Get lost, I'm going back to studying and get promoted ! Assholes.

Econs and Gsc promo paper tomorrow

2011-09-29T12:06:00.001+08:00

Studying only econs now. Gsc tomorrow then study bah. Or maybe later. When I get seriously bored of econs lols. Read only 3A and I'm bored Le. Actually I can understand econs, but I really dk why just cannot score zzz. Oh well, now have to just study hard and do my best ! Update tomorrow(: JIAYOU PEARL ANG XUE TING !! you can derh ! Promote ! ((: byebye.

Pearlang jiayou doyourbestandscore.

Consultations one after another = panic for exam hahah

2011-09-28T11:14:00.001+08:00

Having consultations in sch now ~ exams are like freaking near. Later at night still got tuition. Sian max. But for the sake of my promos, 忍！加油！must promote lah. Keep yawning now wts. I realise I yawn ALOT lately. All those short yawns long yawns all have lols. There there come again zzz. Dwant exams to come, but yet I want it to faster end LOL #contradicting
This year passed DAMN FREAKING FAST. I was just complaining about my class and stress and stuff, and 9months just voom, fly past. Sigh. A levels next year, scary. Why am I thinking of a levels when my prompts haven't end -.- still got Chinese a levels and pw sia. Sian ttm.
And the classmate I thought didn't like me, talked to me just now ! Freaking surprised sia. Omg hahah. But oh well. I already took it in stride that time so yups hahas. Still good news bah(: waiting for miss Halimah to come back~ shall end here first. Byebye ! (:

Iwishiwishwithallmyheart, topasspromoswithgoodresults ^^

End of gp promos.

2011-09-26T11:57:00.001+08:00

Just did today's gp promos paper. It was more difficult then usual I guess ? But still manageable(: really hope can get at least b for it. Actually starting like very difficult (paper 2) but do do do then like okay liao hahas. So I also dk. Otw home now for lunch. Wanna eat macs since idk how long ago but my mum SMS say still got fried rice so go back eat bah. If hungry or what then go buy ! ((: bigmac !! Love it. Okay bah shall end here. Later go home chiong work le. Byebye ! (:

Ohoh !! And I made and effort to not listen to music when going to school so that it won't play in my head when I'm doing the paper, and it worked !! Only "fiction" played a while and abit but then after a while jiu mei you liao (: HAPPYYY ! shall do that before econs and Gsc also. Physics and maths still okay bah(: GAMBATTE ! okay bye !

Love that weir...ahem special fish that goes mehmeh~

2011-09-23T16:29:00.001+08:00

Hehe this post is dedicated to a damn weird (or special) fish that goes mehmeh instead of bloopbloop hahah. Are you thereeee ?
She's the one who always appear out of nowhere just to encourage me and cheer me up when I'm emo-ing or just feeling all messed up. Many times le. You know that kind of feeling like, so long didn't talk, but then she still concern and care about you and the friendship, the feeling is damn comforting. Maybe that's true friendship, like people always say it's not those everytime with you one then is best friend or true friend, is those you can DAMN long dont talk but when you do, can talk alot or like no awkwardness etc then considered. We're like in this category hahas. So yeap, if that fish sees this, I wanna say : THANKYOU for accepting me no matter how dumb i was/am (o.o xD) and ILOVEYOU <3 no matter how weird you are HAHA :DD and dworry, I will cheer up derh.

He's leaving today, but heck, promos more important, GAMBATTE !!

2011-09-23T12:38:00.001+08:00

Just remembered that he's leaving Sg for china today. But I'm not gonna wish him 一路顺风 cus that time I ask him what time he leaving, he can't fcuking be bothered to reply and still avoid the topic. Like wtf ? Say I'm petty, but I can't get over that yet. It's damn irritating when I'm trying to show concern for you but you can't be bothered, why should I continue to try then ? Waste my time only. Asshole.

Oh whatever, shall not get angry all over again for this kind of people, not worth it(: not worth my time and emotions. Time to go bathe and study soon ! Promos freaking near already ! JIAYOU !!

真的想你了。

2011-09-18T19:26:00.001+08:00

I really really really really x infinity miss you. I really want to see you now. But why our timing so not match ? Just like how we met and stuff, the timings are all wrong ! If only you remained the same till now, and I met you later, things would probably be different right ? Idk what to say or what to do. But I just want to see you before you leave. But then my promos coming, and not all of us free when I can make it. Idk ! If we only meet to see and eat okay ? Cus I cannot waste time liao. Idkidkidk ! I just want to see you. But you probably don't feel the same for me anymore. Idk 我在想这么多干嘛。事情已过了那么久，我真的不知道自己在拉扯什么。maybe I'm really bad in letting go. It's just me, my problem, nothing to do with you. You don't care anyway.

Okay ignore that hahah. Promos soon ! I should be studying, not blogging !! Hahas. Oh well. Have to find some place to pour everything so yups. Nobody would wanna listen, so tell you loh((: so long didn't update you liao. After promos Kay ? Sure spam you with shows one hahas. Okay time to reply to people and study ! Byebye !! <3

Ijustmissyou, that'sall, assimpleasthat.

JC

2011-09-13T08:58:00.003+08:00

Forgot post this ytd lols.

Yay got blogger app ! Blog ah blog 好久不见。I need to go sleep now. Shall update some other time. But no matter how long I didn't update you, I'll never forget you :D <3 good night ! 中秋节快乐！

Emo

2011-09-13T08:58:00.001+08:00

Econs test marks damn sucky. ): emo le. Now pw lecture. Like boring only. Siannn )): post later ! (:

first day at work, tired.

2010-12-17T19:37:00.003+08:00

started work today. not cashier. but the one who pack stuff inside. oh well. it's easier anyway(: stand damn long -.- sian. sigh. hope jiayi comes to work faster. then i not so bored. x.x shall sleep earlier tonight. if not tomorrow sure suffer. i think i'm gonna fall sick if idsleep more. that time after 12 plus sleep and like 6 plus wake up, my body already start to tell me that i should sleep more. cus got blocked nose, today got mucus. and slight cough ): just drank warm water. hope it's not cough ! oh and my workplace toilet is like :S idthink i can get used to it. PLUS, if i come that thing, then more mafan. squat one. and wet. and i'm supposed to wear long pants EVERY WORKING DAY. -.- seriously wth. no flush, scoop water to flush. lalala. idk. searched on net for ways to solve blocked nose. trying them out(: okay byebye !

please let me be away from cough, flu, blocked nose, fever, whatever sickness. please..

2010-12-16T16:28:00.006+08:00

watched hello stranger yesterday ((: loved it ♥ my first thai show lols. super niceeee. super funny. super sad. only the ending abit ... i know why they have such an ending lah, but still abit ... lols. but overall still very nice :DD those who havent watch it yet should do so !! (: only gv and nex [shaw] have o.o

starting work tomorrow. hope it'll be easy x.x first time work sia. jiayou jiayou ! (:

feel like watching confession also. a jap show. looks interesting. but maybe next time bah.

LOVE thai songs :D now thai movie alsooo. only one lah. but also counted..lols. only horror movies i CONFIRM wont watch. lols. okay idk what to say le. x.x byebye !

"may" : how can you love me ? we know nothing about each other. you dont even know my name !

"jack/darng" : i only know that when i'm with you, i'm so damn happy.

HELLO STRANGER IS LOVED ((:

wild wild wet !

2010-12-11T21:13:00.004+08:00

went to WWW [wild wild wet] just now. quite fun(: but very little games ): anyway. it's been like dk how long since i went there. and also for dk since i've updated you(: slacking these few days. cant find a job ): maybe gonna check out on monday with peiyu or remus [either one..i think]. see how. just now after www, feel so tired. but then i wanna use com -.- then didnt sleep. got that..still underwater or like just came out from water..the..idk how to explain. this faint dizziness or something. but quite okay lah the feeling. it's very standard. everytime after swimming also liddat. like still in the pool lols.

bro's coming back like..2 days later. yayy !

later 9.30 got personal taste ! last ep. waiting to watch(:

thai songs are so niceee. korean also. chinese also. lols. now very seldom listen to jap and english le. english only when i'm outside, like alot of places playing so auto can hear. but jap very little. heartbreaker by g-dragon damn niceee :D i know abit slow but ya lols. idcareee. it's still nice. mind-games by c-quint damn nice alsooo :D these two(: k-otic ! i'm waiting for their album. ffk rocks also. lols. waii okay lah. peiyu likes her voice lols. tayyijing that evil girl is working. she arh..like got suitor worrr, shhh LOL. she dwanna admit but who knows. time will tell the truth. let nature takes its course. wahh, suddenly got mo shui lols.

internet connection these days abit sucky luh wlao. anyway, i should start closing the applications and windows le cus it's 9.30 in 9 mins ! lols. byebye ! will try to update soon. 8 mins !

一定会学者忘记你的。。

O level over ! 神话！

2010-11-16T11:29:00.006+08:00

O LEVEL IS OVER ! since friday actually lols. went out on friday, sunday and yesterday. tiring sia x.x yesterday went out with yijing, thinhui, soh, delia and jiayi. wenqi brought us to buy the mask at first. went to pizza hut for lunch. dinner at siam restaurant. omg the tom yam soup is DAMN spicy -.- but it's kinda different from the one i had in thailand. the one is thailand is also damn spicy but it's clear soup..idk how to explain. is like not so thick and stuff. hmms, i think i still prefer the thailand one o.o authentic mah hahas. watching 神话 (the myth) now. so sad, 吕素（金莎） died. for 易小川（胡歌）. sigh. oh well. i still have MANY MANY eps to go. jiayou ! (: slacking is nice actually lols. going holiday soon ! taiwan ! (: before that got prom. prom is damn ma fan omg -.- waste damn alot of money ): after taiwan trip most probably working, if they're willing to hire me (: hahas. but prom is seriously ): hope it'll be fun. if not it'll be a super waste of time and money -.- okay i go watch le, byebye !

吕素小姐，你愿意嫁给易小川先生吗？ LOL !

2 more days !

2010-11-10T15:27:00.005+08:00

FINALLYYYY ! i found someone who appreciates thai songs :DD woo ! (:

okay two more papers and days and i'm done with o's !! (: hope the results good lah. but i still dk go jc or poly. see results (: k-otic and ffk !! (: maybe should listen to more of waii and the dk what group's song someday. ytd talk to delia about neopets. feel like playing now xD but i should study physics ! redo mcq. hopefully can redo whole book again, then three times x.x okay. next time then continue, do physics ! (: byebye !

你总是在我眼前消失，让我伤心，然后又突然出现，让我开心，这样我的心会受不了啦！x.x

so long didnt post !

2010-11-02T16:08:00.005+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!! omgosh lah. so long didnt update le. i'm so freaking bored now. although o's not over but until monday then ss. so tomorrow then study ! (: later will wanna sleep le. compensate for hours lost last night and last last night lols ! monday ss, then tuesday or sth chinese i think. then thursday friday mcq and i'm done with o's !! :DD so fast now it seems x.x after o's, show marathon lo. lots of shows to watch (: but for now i'm so boredddd but idwant to study ss ): and that stupid jolyon ignore me just now. he that. 重色轻友. i so bored he also dcare >: ( and no one online also. wlao. i shall go listen to 心疼你的心疼 again. so niceee :D byebye(:

我太笨，明知道你是错的人，明知道这不是缘分，但我还相信有点可能。。

pearl, prelims 加油 ! ((:

2010-08-13T19:32:00.005+08:00

HELLO ! 好久不见(: my prelims are ongoing and i've english olvl oral on the 17. i hope i can get distinction ! :DD lalala. emaths paper today was easy, but that's why we're afraid that paper 2 might be very difficult. about one more week of prelims to go, jiayou ! (:

the feeling is still there. i'm quite neutral about it, but i'm happy we are still okay, like as before :D i'm really glad. as long as he dont ignore me,avoid me or is afraid of me, i'm happy enough. ((: please let it remain.

korkor go overseas le ): for 4 months ! i'll miss him. last night's flight. we went to the airport to have our dinner then walk him to the departure hall. ): about 8-10 of his friends came to see him ._. lols.

was talking to yijing on the phone just now. happyyy ((: i'm also happy that my friendship with her is still the same(: despite her dnt lols. after dnt luh, after o's. then we can spend the whole day together again for very very long ! hahah.

okay, jiayou for my prelim ! monday is emaths paper 2 and chem paper 2. tomorrow got chem extra lesson. sunday got chem tuition. luckily for these two sessions, because idfeel like studying chem today lols. i shall do more maths later. byebye(:

对你的感觉，我也不知道会有多久，顺其自然吧，看谁能拉我一把。。

confused, but i must not be ! x.x

2010-07-14T19:33:00.004+08:00

idk. i very luan now. at first i suspected something. but then now, like maybe my suspicions were wrong. ): idk. stupid thing is, there's a weird feeling. then if my suspicion is wrong, but the feeling doesnt go away, i'm dead. i must try not to be so silly anymore. i need all the security i can get. please dont let it be a mistake. or if it has to be a mistake, please get rid of the weird feeling. maybe it's not a weird feeling, maybe i know this feeling, but at this point of time, idwish to admit and accept it. just dont misunderstand, you. idk what you're thinking. you're making me confused. idwant to be confused. damn it. i'm only about to forget that, and now another one comes along. -.- what's wrong man ! )):

studies are flooding my schedule. after this, i'm gonna bathe and then chiong my work ! ._. sigh. jiayou jiayou ! in the meantime, i'll try to not think of the unnecessary stuff, and focus on my studies. i'll try. okay. byebye.

你是在看我吗?

finally the answer, after three years(: thankyou.

2010-07-11T08:52:00.004+08:00

told me something yesterday. i wasnt really surprised at the answer anyway, just 一时之间不知如何反应。可能在这三年来，或是在这次的六月假期里，感觉已经淡化了，所以没什么感觉。所以你不必担心我，我没事。如果你是在中二时跟我说，我可能会哭死。但现在就还好，所以幸亏你是现在和我说。而我也终于能够放下这个背了三年的包袱。终于能够死心。所以我是真的感谢你的答案，好让我继续过我的生活，让我敢去接受我应该拥有的幸福。反正我知道是不可能的，但没有你的答案，我可能没办法死心，所以现在真的很好。谢谢你(: 我们还是好朋友，真的。it's like nothing lols. i watched tv, went to sleep, and wake up as per normal. not sad, and i also didnt dream of it. so it's like ehhh, maybe i've already let go sooner than i thought, maybe holidays until now is already no feelings liao, only thing i didnt wanna admit. hahas. hao ba, nothing's changed(: and i have to thank the group of guy friends i had, junhan, remus, jinhui. because of you guys, i can stop thinking of that guy because..lols idk, cus you all are guys also so like, wont feel so weird without him. hahaha thanks alot((: and joyce soh delia, thanks for being with me when the guys are being wishy-washy =/ hahas. and of course yi jing also lah((: even though she is not always with me, but she's the one that knows everything. and can listen to me and understand me((: 所以除了谢谢你之外，我还要谢我的朋友，让我对你的感觉淡化，让我不再那么痛苦。(:

okay end of story liao hahahs ! back to the real world. tuition later. not going to ahma house le bah. then physics spa on saturday. after physics spa then got oral consultation. still finding a day to go watch despicable me with my brother, or family if my parents wanna watch lols. hmms, so most probably wont go watch with delia or jolyon le bah. joyce and junhan going to watch today. soh going with parents. remus and jinhui dk. so yups. hmms, quite alot of things dk how to do )): amaths binomial, dk how to start even. then physics paper the..siglap one, also got questions dk. and got some like answers wrong derh leh ._. geog homework also some stuck ): still got what work ? idk liao lols.

after o's must watch 天外飞仙 and..i forgot what show again. cus they are so niceee :D and watch full metal panic the whole thing. lols. but cannot think of it now lah, after o's (: okay i shall offline now, byebye !

怎么不痛？也是好事(:

sad.

2010-07-07T18:19:00.004+08:00

damn pissed. they cant shut up about my hair. damn irritating. as in is sb irritating kind. you dont like ? DONT SEE LAH ! tmd. also not your hair right ? talk so much for what sia ? say one time i sad enough liao lah. say so many times. then a few say some more. are you all my friends one anot ? if yes. then shut up. if no, get lost. spare a thought for me can anot ? when you all cut hair or whatever shit, i got suan you ? if you wanna do it this way right, fine. next time you wait loh. who never chu chou before ? just wait until you chu chou loh, suan you like mad. see you like it anot lah ! if you wont like it, then you suan me for what ? never hear before 'do unto other what you want others to do unto you' arh ? go ask cher what it means lah.

chiong homework and tuition work etc these few days. friday chem spa. must prepare ! must study ! jiayou(:

really starting to suspect something. should i care ? or should i not ? if i care, will anything good from out of it ? if i dont, what will happen ? sigh. nvm luh. wait until it's confirmed first bah. dwant to..make a fool of myself just cus i thought too much -.- up to that person loh. okay byebye !

dont wanna be sad. dont wanna be emo )): i wanna be happy. and smart :D so i can score As for my o levels !

busy days !!

2010-07-02T22:29:00.004+08:00

chionging homework for the past few days. today finally can touch com a while. either later or tomorrow chiong again. jiayou jiayou ! may be buying jay's album cus junyi say got his collectables ((: i want !! hahas.

listening to never say never. it's quite nice(: okay now it's bonamana xD

got this weird feeling about some things. like know some things. but i wont care luh. cus i shouldnt(:

today damn busy. after school, rush home for tuition, after tuition rush back to school for night class. and it was raining. luckily i didnt have to wait for the bus ! :DD very happy. then dk why 5.30 end liao. then go home loh. catch up with qianhui a little.

ytd go tmart for kfc :D then go with yijing to buy stuff. got closer lah. but i think after her dnt [hopefully] things will be finally back to normal.

i shall end here(: byebye.

知道，不知道，没关系吧。。

school reopen tomorrow, have to wake up early )):

2010-06-27T21:57:00.004+08:00

tomorrow 开学了。talking to yijing on the phone now. so long didnt talk to her le. kinda distant. but idwanna distant away from her. she's my best best friend lah, with peiyu lols. two of my super best friends. idwanna distant from them )): but luckily when i'm not with them, i have another group of great friends with me(: so idfeel lonely. thanks guys(: i also dk why suddenly talk about this. but just ya. thanks all, i love my friends :DD

i love my family too((: when i'm feeling super uncomfortable and pain, my mum and dad showed lots of concern((: thanks :D i love you two too. okay my bro is asking me to off com -.- he very evill lah. sigh. byebye(:

明天又要早起了 )):

fathers' day !

2010-06-20T07:59:00.004+08:00

it's fathers' day ! HAPPY FATHERS' DAY ! :D but i didnt prepare anything for my dad =X idk what to make lehs. maybe later go and think.

celebrating ahma's birthday today. later luh.

birthday celebration was abit screwed but overall still okay luh. cus at first all dk where to go. in the end joyce very pissed and i also quite sianed. in the end say meet at pasir ris interchange. i arrange to meet junhan in the bus so wont be too bored alone. then he in the bus keep saying me to wear his cap lols. his cap very high ._. after that i confiscated his phone cus he give me. then after that cus he wanna go find remus. in the end remus come back le, then he lost. then cant call him cus his phone with me =X but after that he came back lah. then meet yijing and jinhui a the mrt there. after much discussion, we go ehub for kbox. but in the end kbox too ex. mad one sia. they put $13++ right, in the end tell us plus plus liao is $26. wtf ?! and no lunch or whatsoever. only 2 drinks. -.- so in the end we go pasir ris park. i sit double bike with yijing. jinhui and remus also take bike. the rest took rollerblade. then i wanna rent one hour derh. and rmeus and jinhui they all also want one hour. then got some want two hours. then okay fine two hours. in the end, too long. feed mosquitoes x.x so one hour and abit a few of us dwant liao. rather forfeit the 2 plus dollars. then go back ehub. then we go eat. joyce and junhan go home. then ate at justacia [again] lols. cus the jap restaurant too ex liao. then remus, jinhui and soh go play bowling while we continue to eat. then we go meet them, see them play a while then we go off le. yijing and i went to sit the..idk what's that. it's in front of the escalator to go ehub. fun ! hahahas. but after that wanna vomit LOL =/ cus ate not long only mah. then very bumpy. but fun(: next time go there gonna sit again. then go home loh.

okay i shall go and think of what to do for my dad. byebye !

父亲节快乐！

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ! :D 16

2010-06-18T23:10:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ! :D

hahas. sixteen le. o.o hahas. time flies eh. received countless wishes and 3 presents :D from qianhui, remus and delia ! :DD thanks guys :D tried to use the presents today. like just now go out use the keychain remus bought. and the wallet qianhui bought. but i brought but forgot to change into the earrings delia bought =X

details about the outing next time then say bah. very tired ! wanna go sleepppppp. replied to almost 60 wishes on facebook. LOL. and out the whole day. now 11 plus le. zzz. good night world ! byebye !

祝我生日快乐！ :D

birthday celebration :D

2010-06-17T17:20:00.004+08:00

went out with my family yesterday for dinner ! :D celebrate early birthday(: the food was not bad. regretted not taking more of the wasabi chicken and cream puff )): uploaded the pictures on fb(: going out with friends tomorrow. too bad peiyu cant go sia )): sad.

abit sick. like feverish throughout the day, but take temp is like 36.8 or something. but i just took medicine anyway. i swallowed the tablet, and felt the thing move through my throat. not nice feeling. like stuck and choking idk. so please remind me never to swallow a tablet without biting it into half first tyvm. okay luh nothing le. byebye !

hmms, who will remember ?

funny day today hahss.

2010-06-16T14:50:00.004+08:00

celebrating my early birthday with my family later. eating buffet i think ? hahas. in the meanwhile, i shall do my tuition homework and listen to music(:

school was okay. some parts of the day DAMN funny. hahaha. like when the guys [moose, jinhui, junhan] playing the number thingy. they say winner can hit soh twice, second place hit once, loser cannot hit LOL. then after that samantha joined, after i told her the 'reward' she wanted to join even more xD then after that soh took some weapons to suan zhang, sam just say she didnt join arh and escaped LOL lah she xDD then thaddeus also. he try to imitate me. then idk why he was bouncing on his chair instead. then jianyou say he look like a fatty bouncing xD then he was like 'really meh?' then jianyou said ya and listed someone's name. [shant say who, but not from our class] damn funny. then what else. oh lit. thaddeus keep trying to mimic paul, end up sounding funny. then miss tang was asking us to guess the n word. like word that starts with n lah. that jianyou go say 'nb' [the full one, not N-B] damn loud LOLLOL laugh like woah. so in conclusion, today was quite a funny day hahahas.

raining just now. but moose, junhan, jinhui and soh had the heart to walk me home after much pleading. hahas. okay luh nvm. i should start on my work ! tomorrow need to hand in le ._. byebye !

那些是你想给我的误解，还是你想让我了解？

chem prac and test

2010-06-15T15:06:00.003+08:00

found out ytd that it's my bro that's coming back at 5pm. my dad idk lols. but nvm luh. still wednesday.

just now damn dots -.- cus at first my tuition is 2pm. then change to 5pm. then just now my teacher tell me he 5.30pm got dental then around 2pm plus free. then i thought he was talking about today, in the end i 12 plus then saw his msg. i tried to call him like mad, but keep like auto off. as in like the line was cut but it's auto one. cus if it's not then there'll be the..user busy, retry ? thing. then after that i walking back le. then he called. then after that then i know it's for thursday -.- but nvm luh. come back earlier also okay mah(:

my phone the memory really no space le lols. 1.0MB. now uploading some pictures to fb so that i can delete them from the phone and put more songs inside(: maybe i should clear some songs too. and i got one video 23MB -.- thinking if i should delete that too o.o OMFG. uploading failed ! wth !! -.- i shall retry. okay. transferred all those pictures to another folder. i shall either upload now or next time. okay probably now hahas. o.o no wonder. cus not enough space. shall create another photo album on 'random' hahas. tuition at 5pm, but got some questions really dk how to do ):

chem prac and test just now. still okay lehs the test. but i know i about 4 marks say byebye liao hahas. haoyi was like totally give up lols. he was just waiting for jolyon to finish the paper. then jinhui is the, already-finished-but-MUST-check-like-a-thousand-times. LOL. opposite o.o lalala okay shall do other stuff now. byebye.

can sia o.o

sushi making(: i shall try.

2010-06-14T17:20:00.004+08:00

woah, if can make this standard then hohoho hahas.

hohoho hellos ! (: i'm in quite a good mood now (:

dad say wednesday he coming back at 5, so can go out and celebrate my birthday(: i intend to go and buy some ingredients to make sushi. like thursday practise then friday do and bring to school, but idk if they'll wanna eat. jinhui is online. i ask him, he say can, but if the topping is not eggs then he'll just eat the rice lols. the rest idk. maybe tomorrow ask them bah (:

friday going out with friends lo. like jinhui, remus, soh, delia. yijing and peiyu not confirmed yet. joyce maybe cannot. and ya..liddat bah. so see how lo(: and that fuji, i think i cant ask him go also cus all secondary school one then he go like so weird. and kt also cant ask cus he's primary school one -.- and honga dajie also primary school ._. so yea ):

i hope that thing comes by tomorrow. idwant it to clash with my outing days -.- cus if pain or it springs a surprise on me, it's damn stupid. i'll probably eat dk how many pain killers to stop the pain, so if you dwant me to eat so much panadol, you better come before tomorrow -.-

i'm really losing the feeling liao sia. friends can really help to distract those kind feelings (: at least that's what's happening now. so yea, okay luh. hahas. okay i shall end here, byebye(:

maybe really can..or is it another new one x.x

maybe this time round really can.

2010-06-12T22:26:00.004+08:00

hellos ! (: so long didnt update. i also dk what to update. my dad was saying that thursday, friday, saturday all not free cus got sth on in the army. then so ya..maybe can go out with friends on my actual birthday. so monday then plan luh. so maybe thursday can have tuition o.o see how luh.

feels like i'm letting go gradually already. maybe i can. maybe.

suddenly got this weird feeling of something, but i know tomorrow wake up it'll be gone le so idcare. (:

okay luh seriously dk what to say. chem test next week. on organic chem, jiayou jiayou ! :D byebye

可能这次真的可以放下了。。

still will.

2010-06-04T21:58:00.004+08:00

just noticed ytd was the 600th post. hahas. had school today. ss was as boring or even more boring than yesterday. so thin hui delia and i talked and stuff. and had tuition today also. the one-to-one one. hahas. and what else ? oh, they were asking this morning about it, but heard that there wasnt a reply. but i've said before that i'll try not to care and be bothered so yes, by keeping myself busy, i wont think of it. it works luh(: except for sometimes in school cant luh but a little bit nvm luh. okay watch tv ! byebye !

还是会想你的。。

我还是喜欢你的

2010-06-03T20:49:00.004+08:00

was shocked by something just now. it was the FIRST thing i saw when i went to fb. i totally went, 'huhhh..???' and then, 'so oh'. but after that i found out it's not true luh so yea. but even if it's true, i cant do anything. i'll just accept the fact and learn to move on, cus it'll probably mean that it's time i moved on ? idk. but i shouldnt think about all these anyway so ya. huuu~

learnt integration during amaths today. then ss lols luhs. she ask us to think of an acronym for something. then haoyi and jianyou took their specs at the same time and looked at the screen at the same time ! damn lols lah ! hahas. the two pros for creating acronyms. geog and chem also they think derh hahas. and they was a commotion with jinhui's phone. damn fierce ._. lols. okay i go watch tv le byebye !

&我真的有一点被吓到。。

明知我爱你

2010-06-02T15:35:00.004+08:00

oh crap oh crap oh crap ! found out something today, which i've already suspected long ago. so it's true -.- stupid lah. sigh. then i heard liao then almost cant concentrate -.- tmd. luckily the logical side of me won the..feeling side of me. heng lah. if not miss out on the topic again then jialat liao. crap crap crap ! although i know nothing will happen but i just cant help but think of it. idwant to think of it liao ! go away ! argh. i shall do my chem !! byebye. and the lyrics of 明知我爱你 is damn nice and it fits my feelings nicely.

明知道我爱你，却不敢告诉你。我害怕失去你，宁愿沉默不语。
该如何证明，幸福在手里，我恨自己，无能为力。
明知道我爱你，却不敢靠近你。我假装不在意，反而痛了自己。
多痛都可以，不能没有你。只想永远永远爱你，你知不知道我也没关系。
告诉你，瞒着你，只不过是个决定。但为何到如今我依然无法前进？
我越了解你，越靠近你，越犹豫。

2010-05-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

mye is over. results are out. no As ): but luckily only fail one. and is by 3 marks. i passed my chem !! and ss/geog first time fail by so little bit(: physics and amaths wanna bang wall. careless mistakes like -.- can get A derh lah wlao. ):

didnt know there was a loyal visitor in this blog hahas. thanks for coming. and sorry for always not updating even after the reminder lols. now i finally rmbed so ya.

nowadays keep dreaming about someone. sigh. why cant dream be reflected in reality too ? )): and someone also encouraged me to tell, but idhave enough courage yet. so nah..not now.

gonna have one-to-one tuition lo ! (: cus i think group tuition really not enough. so my dad found a one-to-one tutor, who does all 3 subjects, phy, chem and amaths. hahas. i think he jialat le lah. i told him to be prepared cus i alot of things also dk one. hahas. talked to him on msn also. then he also know i always 'idk' LOL. he's quite a funny guy. but it's weird to have a one-to-one tuition with a guy -.- and that guy is not even my friend. so it's like a stranger of the opposite gender teaching you in your house ._. weirddd. hope it wont be awkward ._.

tomorrow mtp session. my mum in the end say she not going le. good. but she wants my dad to go -.- i really dont understand why they wanna go. every year go like how many times, listen to the same thing over and over not sian meh ? -.- since primary school until now lah. 10 years liao. not like teacher request to see them liddat. and they go also got nothing to ask the teachers. then go for ? but since my mum wants my dad to go. then go loh. take report book and go home, in a car ((: then idhave to walk home also. so anything loh.

tomorrow is also the chinese o levels for the express chinese students. flooding their walls on facebook. ._. cus i got no unlimited sms and there's quite a few people. max, moose, soh, junhan, peiyu, delia, jolyon, wayne, amalia. and then i'm smsing thaddeus cus of the mtp timing. dk still got who ._. nvm luhs. should be liddat only bah =X. okay. i shall end here first. quite late le. byebye.

你不知道我在想你，是因为你不爱我，我明明知道你不想我，却还爱你，是因为我太傻。也许有时候，逃避不是因为害怕去面对什么，而是在等待什么。

two more papers !

2010-05-14T15:48:00.002+08:00

last two more papers on monday. both mcq. but still must go recap. it's the last boost to score. lalala. at fb now. so many 'like' derh invitation x.x okay lah idk what to type. byebye.

看着你。。对你笑(:

stay happy please pearl (:

2010-05-01T08:10:00.004+08:00

woke up like 7 plus today. by my mum and dad's conversation -.- then after that my bro and them so market loh. so i'm alone at home now. sometimes i really like being at home alone. more freedom. but after many hours, sometimes i'll wish they come back soon. hahas. idk luhs. but i'm using a while more then off le.

i've been listening to many sad songs nowadays. ): but sad songs can put me into the studying mood. so i'm still quite okay with it. when exams are over, maybe the happy songs will come in. maybe.

was telling jing about the two happy things that happened yesterday. and she said some things. but idk how to express it so nvm. anyway, i'm quite persistent now. since it's like kinda confirmed, then just leave it as it is until something else happens.

in the meanwhile, i should just concentrate on saving all the contents in my brain first. die le lah..so many chapters..how to memorize ?! who ever started olvl is so evil ._. emaths is from sec 1 to 4 leh ! i think sec 1 and 2 derh textbook i give away liao =X die. but mdm tan will revise with us i think, so hope it helps(: jiayou pearl ! you can do it ! concentrate and focus ! think of all the happy things ! (: byebye.

think of him..

等一颗遥远的心，就像要星星回应许的愿望，苦苦没有回答。。

): and (:

2010-04-30T16:55:00.004+08:00

even though i know it's just that i think too much and you didnt mean anything, i'm still happy(:

listening to 周杰伦's 超人不会飞 okay lah. but maybe cus listen for first time. some songs i listen must listen more than once then will like(: let's just wait and see(:

today english exam. as quoted from delia, 'one down ! but many to go ._. ' hahas. so true. english okay lah. bu paper 2 abit difficult =X jiayou jiayou ! (: use about 1 hour le..gtg ! byebye !

the clouds that blocked me from the sun today are the only friends i had today ):

你没有去吃咩 ?

i really want to be in your arms.

2010-04-25T08:31:00.003+08:00

not motivated..not motivated..how ?! )): jaychou's new album is comng out soon ((: his songs are great for studying [i guess] x.x idk what i'm talking now also -.-

had a weird dream. really weird dream. so weird i'd rather not talking about it -.- and then i sort of have these words in my mind 'it's great when you look at the person, and that person is already looking at you' it's sort of some primary school memories hahas. but it's all over now. but memories are still definitely worth keeping. then it's like now ): 单恋 is a really sad feeling ): whatever that i want it to happen, appears in my dream. but what appears in my dream, are unlikely to happen )): which is why i'm sad )): i'm living on memories. those memories i wont forget. because it's different now, i'm hanging on to them so tightly. sigh.

must study ! must study ! gambatte neh ! today it's on to more ss and geog. and probably some physics or maths. jiayou ! byebye.

某一夜梦见你摸我脸旧伤又复发，有些话没有人能去讲心情被锁上

回到两年前，回味当时的甜蜜，多好。。

2010-04-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

today was a little bit of a cranky day. afternoon was like omg -.- until sigh. nvm. just suck. then after that better. then nice performance by the performers(: stupid thing is kana pushed by this effing teacher. force me to sit down. say dont block the way. wth ! i didnt even know lah ! cant she like say it properly ? push what push ? tmd.

chem SPA. screwed up one question. so i think it L1 liao. but idk is the whole thing L1 or only certain part. shit sia )): x.x )))): sad.

thought my friendship with someone is back. just found out it wasnt. so this is how our friendship is. so this is how you want it to end lah ? so last time you say one all is fake lah. just say for fun only right ? whatever man, whatever. you are busy, i am too you know. oh f. shouldnt be thinking of things other than studies. it's bloody hard to do so but i'll try. i will. byebye.

看着你。就这样看着你。好想回到过去，回到两年前，回味一下当时的甜蜜。。

挚爱怨恨定存在，喜怒哀乐靠自己。但情不自禁，又能奈何？

2010-04-22T18:10:00.005+08:00

had a fun and funny lunch with two nonsensical guys and one normal girl hahas. is remus and junhan lah. and the normal girl is aixuan. the two guys really joker one lah. keep talking nonsense. and dk what's wrong with junhan's hand. keep spilling things. and then all of them walked the same way, yay ! :D and that junhan go swing his leg over my head again -.- then at first he say 'do i look like i'm so evil ?' then me and remus were like 'ya !' at the same time LOL then he also speechless xD then remus walked to the busstop opposite my house. walk halfway then saw the bus at the traffic light. so he just ran liao lols. then junhan and ax go 201 there. end of story lols. but woah just now in class ps sia. the express chinese class. in the end i got so many mistakes. i only got 6/10 -.- and is tio shoot by the teacher for nothing one -.- me and ax at the back then kana liao. hcl student then only 6 -.- at least ax got 7 pspsps sia. super ):

then recess going back to class. dk why today's green tea bottle cap so hard to open. then just nice haoyi, wayne and jinhui behind me. so i was like talking to them asking if any one of them can help to open. then haoyi and wayne ignored me lah ! ): then jinhui see i kana ignored then help me open lols. that two arh..sigh. not gentleman one. tsk tsk tsk lols. yea. okay nvm. time to prepare to do homework. byebye !

挚爱怨恨定存在，喜怒哀乐靠自己

但就是情不自禁。。我又能奈何？

and it's all you.

2010-04-19T18:13:00.004+08:00

that one hour was so 乎近乎远. so near yet so far )): terrible. and then i saw you smiling, but not at me. although it was sad, your smile was enough(: do smile often. 单恋嘛 i know it's like that. but i guess it's just very hard for me to say and idthink i will, until maybe when i graduate. and that's a maybe. if i tell you now, i know it's gonna be a disaster. ): no way man. no way.

jiayou pearl(: study please pearl. STUDY for god's sake. study. i'm gonna study in 9 mins. cus in 9 mins, i would have used the com for one hour. dont think too much about those stuff and concentrate. must concentrate le pearl. mye in 11 days ! [according to the whiteboard] so cannot afford to slack le. jiayou(: byebye.

我就是喜欢你，怎么办？

听到那笑声，就知道是你在笑。。 (:

全都是你

and as if it wasnt enough in real life, you had to appear in my dream.

stupid screw

2010-04-17T21:22:00.003+08:00

stupid screw talked to me today. finally 舍得跟我讲话了啦。重色轻友的臭东西。idiot sia. huh. last time say 24hours one loh. then that time call then say not free. then got gf liao then all the friends dont care le. now then wanna talk to me luh huh -.- but it's like i've gained back a friendship with someone again. got another person i can talk to and stuff. yups. but i've warned him, leave me alone again and see what happens. stupid screw.

today was like, half slack half working. it should have been less slack more working x.x must jiayou more..must be more motivated. (: and think less of somebody as well. i thought that time i was determined to let go but now..it's like sigh. still trying. jiayou on that as well. go watch tv soon le. it has already started showing ! umm, byebye !

原来喜欢的还是你。。又来了 -.-

smile.

2010-04-16T17:38:00.003+08:00

i'm sad ): i'm envious of someone. but that someone cant shut up. keep talking about someone. -.- but i'm envious cus that someone can be close to another someone but i cannot be close with another another someone. ): oh bother. i should smile. and do my homework.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOYI !

please smile.

NAFPA 3As ! :D

2010-04-08T22:21:00.005+08:00

NAPFA test today. 5 stations : sit-up, inclined pull-up, sit and reach, shuttle run and standing broad jump. sit-up i do until 31 stop le cus A le mah. dont waste energy hahas. then incline i do 17 cus also A liao. then shuttle run..HENG ARH. A is less than 11.3 secs. i got 11.26 xD woo man ! :DD okay. then sit and reach my best was 35cm. i think it's a D. worst is standing broad jump. 146, 142, 146 [1st time try] second time, 141, 1__, 141 -.- !! then 146cm right, i need 1cm to pass -.- 147 ! rawr !! ahh ! ): PE time then try(: but very happy can get 3As. especially shuttlerun, damn unexpected cus normally i like always get c or below for that. first time ! :DD

supporting vball b'girls tomorrow ! jiayous ! :D then after that got night study ._. until 7pm i heard. sigh. i better go sleep soon. and ya, weird people are adding me on msn. i accept then check something then delete and block lols. and yesterday my dad's car kana hit ): but is like long story. so next time then say. (: byebye !

这代表是时候放下了吗？真的是这个意思吗？真的应该这样吧？

ep 36 le ): so fast no more le ):

2010-04-03T20:58:00.006+08:00

enlarged the pic cus too small cant see the words.

didnt chiong or what but i finished ep 36 already. and there's only 37 eps -.- so means one more ! but this laptop very qi guai one. use too long then maybe hot or what lah, then load very long. just on that time then very fast lols. so the last ep tomorrow then watch. trying to influence khaiterng with chinese songs :D cus he say in angmoh school then kana influence with english songs le. so i'm gonna try to influence him back ! :D he 中毒太深了 you know. as a jaychou fan, he didnt know 画沙 ): nvm lols. now he knows(: okay 6 more minutes until i go offline and watch 就想赖着你 byebye !

你干吗那么冷淡啊。。'what ?' 我。。 ):

phy test, tomorrow emaths mock exam -.-

2010-03-30T18:56:00.005+08:00

had physics test today. kinda difficult x.x tomorrow emaths mock exam ! can die )): i'm a good girl okay. didnt watch 仙剑三 to study physics ! :D but today dk whether can anot. but should be can control lah. cus got too many work too do ! x.x omg luh. distracted le. com is distracting ! peiyu is distracting ! LOL. and i think i'm distracting her also xD okay better stop talking to her now ! dont talk to me peiyu !! hahas. and we both agree that someone we both know is a stupid idiot basket shit and should just go and bang the wall and die ! -.- okay byebye.

根本就不奢望什么，只想和你说说话，一起笑，像以前一样就好了，但是现在那小小的要求都将被夺走了。。为什么 ? ):

that look, made my heart skip a beat. 我真得很喜欢你

仙剑好句

2010-03-27T16:06:00.004+08:00

一人女人能找到值得自己为他哭为他笑的人，这才是一个女人真正的幸福。

在感情的世界里，只有爱与不爱，没有好与不好。

执子之手，与子偕老。

痛苦的只有我，痴心的也只剩我。

LOVE this part in xianjian3

2010-03-26T22:56:00.003+08:00

LOVE this part. so romantic ! :DD from tudou.com ep 22 仙剑奇侠传三

仙剑三

2010-03-26T22:21:00.004+08:00

ytd jinhui's birthday. the cake was nice :D but it wasnt really a surprise for him x.x but he said he enjoyed it lah. so that's the most important thing. then today is the 'belated celebration'. but not really ._. went to soh's house for idk how long. watched 2 eps of chinese paladin 3 there. got cry, got smile. hahas. soh's dogs are cute ! but when i watching they keep licking -.- then after that go bowling, eat, then go school. take report book. walked home with lala jie.

very weird sometimes. like when with lala jie, i become like..very close to her. then compared to the group, idk how to say. like with the group sometimes very fun, sometimes will feel left out. especially when someone is there ._. so when lala jie appeared just now, i felt SO relieved. x.x still jiemei close. kinship hahas. 血浓于水嘛！hahas. okay lah tomorrow then update. byebye !

我喜欢你。

all results out

2010-03-24T18:24:00.003+08:00

okay final results. have to type all over again ._.

english-> 61._% [B4]
chinese-> 71.6% [A2]
emaths-> 87.5% [A1]
amaths-> 60% [B4]
physics-> 68% [B3]
chemistry-> 45% [D7]
ss/geog-> 63._ % [B4]
literature-> 68% [B3]

actally lit and phy one more mark can get A2 derh loh x.x

watching chinese paladin 3 ep 19 now. later got tuition. tomorrow is jinhui's birthday. and pe tomorrow also. and chinese extra lesson ._. okay lah. i go change. byebye !

胡歌 :DDDDDDDDDD

more results

2010-03-23T21:27:00.005+08:00

got back some more results today. and got some marks change.

emaths-> 35/50 A1

english-> 61._ B4

physics-> 34/50 B3 [damn it one more mark A2 ! ): ]

chem-> 22.5/50 D7 [sian x.x]

amaths-> 24/40 B4

lit-> 17/25 B3

ss-> 10/13 A1 :D

okay..left geog and chinese. waiting ! (:

watching chinese paladin 3 now. mum nagged just now ._. but i'm just watching one ep ! same as watching tv mah. so idwatch tv watch this loh ! same x.x okay go watch..pay attention(: byebye !

执子之手，与子偕老

痛苦的只有我，痴心的也只剩我

some ct results

2010-03-22T17:59:00.005+08:00

got back some more results today.

emaths-> 35/40 [A1 :DD]

english-> 61._/100 [B4 ): 退步sia]

ss-> 10/13 [A1 :DD finally i passed my ss ! woo ! ]

lit-> 17/25 [B3 improved(: but not good enough cus alot of people better, plus no one fail, which shows that paper is easy which means i'm not doing THAT well ): but at least improved ((:]

phy-> 33/50 [but not confirmed yet cus got mrs fong say got one question can accept another answer but idk if mine will affect. hope can add ! :D but now 33/50 is B3. thought it'll be better ): but at least i improved ! :D so jiayou !

chem, chinese and geog havent get back..stress ._. lols. i think i'm still watch chinese paladin 3 first. today no homework and read newspaper le so yeah :DD and i found out i only watch until ep 14 finish. not 15. but nvm. it's still great achievement ! :D and that haoyi very -.- last year i ask if he watch already then he say “不好看” i was like..'huh you watched already ?' then he 'i mean 那个女的不好看' -.- then today i ask him, he say he watch finish liao. then i was saying the girl not bad looking what, quite pretty also. then he say “上次是我还没有看嘛。。then 我看了actually 是漂亮的。” i was like ' -.- 白痴' lols. he damn dot dot dot one lah. weird o.o but until now i still dk her real name. later go check :D okay i go watch liao. byebye !

中二和你的回忆是最美好，最幸福的。。非常。。

仙剑奇侠传三

2010-03-21T18:25:00.005+08:00

watching 仙剑奇侠传三 ep 12. started ytd so quite proud of myself :D but got 37 ep. so cant finish. next time then continue. school reopen tomorrow le. must concentrate on studies le. cannot watch. and doing tys full paper can die ): i cant even finish one ! )): sian. okay lah. gonna eat dinner now. byebye !

最伤害女人的往往是看不见的。。

holiday ending ?!

2010-03-18T18:34:00.004+08:00

listening to run devil run so yeah this pic x.x

cca today. learnt about basic html. which i more or less already know ._. jolyon was beside me and got help abit also lah hahas. but he was listening to the group of sec 3 talking. then he told me.

girl: the more smileys the girl send in a message shows how much she likes you.

boy: eh dont liddat leh. her msg dont have any leh.

LOL sia ! damn funny. but is it true ? that the more smiley the msg have shows how much that person like the other person ? idk.

holiday's ending )): wth loh. sian. ytd go school for oral consultation. lala jie made me and caifang laugh until tears wanna come out liao ._. went for kfc for breakfast and reached school SUPER early. one hour -.- then ivan bryan and glen having oral mah. so i just listen to my music and read TKAMB. went out with peiyu after that. we seriously go out to talk only lah ._. lols. chatted alot. cus too long never talk to each other liao. then tuition..only 3 of us lols. me, huimin and annabella. wee. i can rmb the names okay. lols. okay lah next time then post. i shall..idk. tomorrow then do english compre. now left 15 mins to cruel temptation :D bye !

all lies ? i see. you can go now.